Who knew communication could be so so so important and yet so so so lacking in most relationships, whether it be bf/gf or friend relations. I don't understand this. I honestly thought I was really great at communicating my thoughts and feelings and I also thought I was approachable and easy to talk to. I really did. I think it depends on the situation. I think I am great at communicating here and with my family and close friends...and with people who don't trigger my freaky nature.
Let me expand.
I got to see just how bad things can get when people don't talk. I got to see how wrong I was about my perceptions, interpretations, actions and reactions. It totally freaked me out man! How could I have been so wrong? I don't get it. Non-the-less....I was shown last night. It was a bit of a surreal experience. For every occasion that created a rift....there was a logical explanation for my reaction as well as the other person's. It's amazing how different the sentiment was between this person and myself. How I took something was 100% different than how that person took it. Naturally this is going to happen but when a problem ensues...things need to be dealt with accordingly. Well...in this particular situation....it festered until we both hit our breaking point.
On the one hand; I say it takes a small crisis to bring about all of the feelings/issues/problems that need to be said and dealt with....on the other hand I think that the whole point of great communication is to be able to deal with each instance on the spot...as it happens or even better; that with great communication....these issues wouldn't even arise.
How about that for an end-of-the-week revelation?!!! LOL
The final outcome of the discussion last night has yet to be determined. A major change will happen, whether it is by making changes within our own behaviors or by a drastic change that removes one of us from the scene altogether. Either way...I can see the light.
I am thankful for this learning process....as sad as the path was that brought me here. I am thankful that I had the chance to get out of my own head and into this person's thoughts. I am thankful for the opportunity to grow as a person and as a friend. I guess the question is....what happens now?!!! We'll see folks!
