Anyone have a Valium?

I am sort of hysterical today. I have everything organized. That isn't the problem. Of course I still have things to do BUT...the anticipation of flying is putting me in a state. I am using all my might to challenge my mind into realizing that flying is safe. I have to remember that I have done this so many times....it ain't no thang! Ha!!! Easier said than done.

Noodles!!!

I really ought to stay away from movies that have any sort of plane crash in them. I just saw the movie 'The Gray' and that was about a plane crash somewhere in the north where there is a lot of snow and who ever survived...had to survive the weather and wildlife. Seeing as I am flying over land most of the time and heading south....it seems a little less scary but not by much. My mind continues to take this to a dark place. I don't know how to stop it!!! Happy thoughts! Happy thoughts. Uggggh....I really do think I need a pill!!!! My hands are getting sweaty and I can feel the tension in my neck!!! Uggghhh...it's too soon!!!

Moving on...I am certain that I will not be able to blog everyday. However, it isn't like I won't have access to Internet nor will I be able to stay away from the Internet for very long...seeing as I still need to keep an eye on my business. With that said, I am sure I will post a couple times over the next 2 weeks. And so folks, I should probably keep going with my errands and chores.

Till the next time....peace love and rock n roll!!! Please please please....think happy thoughts for me on my flight. I will be arriving in Buenos Aires tomorrow at noon our time. If I don't make it....(eeeek!!!) I love you all and it was a pleasure sharing with you!!! (LOL) xo

I AM IN LOVE!!!!!

I am in love!!! What can I say? It's a crying shame that my love is a famous Hollywood actor and that I haven't actually ever met him. Ugggghhh!!!

His name is Edward Thomas Hardy also known as Tom Hardy and he is 34 years old. He is a Virgo and I LOVE HIM!!!! LMAO

I just saw his fabulousness in the movie 'This Means War'. I LOVED THE MOVIE!!! It is officially in my top 5 favorites of all time. I nearly peed my pants of laughter and it was just so so fun. I am going to go and see it again in theater with my mom when I come back from my trip. I will for sure be buying the DVD as well.

Please look at the following pics and tell me....he doesn't blow your mind....

Can we say GORGEOUS much?

I went to see this movie with one of my bffs. Whenever I get together with this bff, it is ALWAYS such a treat. She really is an angel and I love her dearly. We are two peas in a pod and I don't think anyone gets me quite like her. Thank you Darling for an amazing night!!! Can never go wrong with hot eye candy and beer! LMAO!!!!

P.S. Tom...it is my ultimate wish to meet you one day! Maybe when I am a famous realtor...and I have the means to get to you...it will happen! xoxox P

Wuzzzzz...up?

What can I say today?

Productivity...the key to success! Yup...that's my new motto! I have so many ideas and a lot of work to do to increase my business. I met with my broker today and he gave me some awesome advice and great tools to jump start my business. I like it! I like it a lot! It is kind of difficult to get into right now...seeing as I only have 5 days before I go away. All good though. Have a serious plan of action for my return. YAY!!!

I will confess however, I am slightly stressing about my flight. The last time I flew...long distance...I had to go to the hospital the next day due to some serious pain from pinched nerves surrounding my neck and shoulders. It was absolutely horrible and I can't tell you that I could handle that kind of pain again. I spoke with my chiro and he gave me some solid advice....choose an isle seat and make sure to get up and walk around as frequently as I can. Seeing as I don't sleep while flying...this won't be a problem. I will also be sure to buy those half moon pillows that go around your neck. I think they are brilliant creations....something to support your neck...love it! I have also seriously entertained getting some kind of prescription...to sedate me for the 10 hour long haul to the one and only stop in Chile. Will sit on that one for a bit! LOL

I am going to go and see "This Means War" tonight with one of my bffs. SO FRIGGIN EXCITED! Chris Pine and Tom Hardy? HOT MUCH? Uggghhhh....kills me actually!

Just want to say....lovin life! Hope you do too!

xo P

OK OK OK!!!

I said alright already!!! LOL

How's everyone doing today? Glad to hear it! I am doing alright. I am enduring some serious back pain right now. I think it's because I am stressed out and my sleeping arrangements have changed slightly. I broke my bed for the last time over the weekend. It was hanging on by a thread...and now that thread is broken too. So...until early April, my mattress is planted on the floor. I don't like it one bit...but such is life. I can't say that that is why my back is sore. Ugggghhh! Who knows?! Either way, I am still seeing my trainer this afternoon and hopefully this pain will go away or at least be over thrown by good post-workout pain. Ha!

I had an eventful weekend. Starting on Saturday I had to get some work done in the morning and then I did alot of running around till the evening at which point I caught up with a bff and her bro. Love this family. It was a quiet night...due to the anticipation of a wild night coming....Sunday night. This bff that I hung out with on Saturday...her sister was having a party to celebrate her birthday on Sunday night. SO FUN!!! I drank more gin than I could handle...and as a result...did something totally out of character. Can't share it though! Sorry! Good times were had...is all you need to know! Then yesterday was nursing a slight hangover. Spent some time with the family....which was awesome! I then went to go and see a movie with Ace...my dear friend. It was ok! Nothing to write home about.

I have an extremely busy week ahead. Seeing as I leave a week today....have so much to do in the interim. Ugggh!!!

Well folks, need to get to it! Happy Tuesday to all! xo P

Ouch!

OMG....so much pain!!!! It's all good though...it's from a killer workout I had yesterday with my trainer. I think I can feel every inch of my body in terms of muscles. We did everything that incorporated everything. LOVE IT!!!  While I was brushing my teeth this morning, I was thinking about what I am going to do while I am away...in terms of working out. My dad's condo has a gym...I could do serious workouts there but then again...I will be on FREAKN HOLIDAYS! I am going to bring my gym clothes...and if I get to it...I get to it!

I keep day dreaming about my first sleep there. I can totally see me sleeping for a long time. We usually don't get to bed before 2am, seeing as we only go for dinner around 10:30pm. With that said, to sleep till 1pm....12 hours....sounds delightful. I can't remember the last time I got to sleep till I couldn't sleep anymore. I am so excited!!! AHHHHHHHHHH!!!!! As soon as I arrive, I am hitting up the pool and getting some much needed sun. Again....AHHHHHHHHHHH!!! I am so friggin excited!!! Only 10 days to go!!!

I am going to get my hair coloured this afternoon. I have left it for way too long. I am disgusted with the amount of gray hair I have. I think I can say this with some certainty...by the time I am 40...I could be totally gray. Scary thought!!! Ekkkk!!!

Well folks, I am just too tired to try to come up with more to share. I am going to tap out till next week! Hope you all have a fabulous weekend and Happy Family Day to all! xo P

Signs!!!

I don't know about you but I believe in signs. Whether they are cosmic energies that flash by me to notify me that I need to seek something out or make a certain move or to accept that something is OR it is coincidence that suggests that I am on the right track perhaps. A sign could be anything ultimately. What makes me so happy about seeing them or feeling them is just  that....that I am open to them. Thank goodness for that man! I think I would still be stuck doing something that didn't make me happy or stuck with someone that was bad for me.

Today has been one of those days. Today something happened that at first made me cringe from despair but that quickly changed to an incredible feeling. I felt empowered, energized and bottom line...ready to go balls out. This morning came a major sign. A sign of the times, a sign of my time, a sign that there is incredible change coming my way and that I really need to grab on tight to it and hold on for dear life. As I am sharing this with you...brings tears to my eyes because for once...I can see my future success before my eyes. What a trip!!! I can feel the energy that comes from the knowledge that I WILL be who I have always wanted to be. I feel the energy that comes from being surrounded by the right people who will get me to that level that I want and need to be at. Again...what a trip! For once...I feel like I am exactly where I am supposed to be. With all that said....what comes with this knowledge are some realizations. The first one being...I can no longer hold onto negative elements....meaning working at the bar. These next 2 weeks....will be my last! I need to focus 100% of my energy....my positive energy to my business. I realize that although working at the bar has given me a home, basic life essentials etc....it has also come with a major sacrifice to my positive energy. This can no longer take place! My future...my career needs all of my undivided attention and it has to be with good spirits if I am going to succeed the way I expect to. I haven't set a date or given my notice...so please let's keep my thoughts as thoughts...for now!

I realize I haven't shared much with you in the way of what sign I was given today. I really don't think that I need to share the actual event. I am sure you can gather that it is business related. Seeing as that my life is totally business directed is why this is so important to me. I am over the moon excited. Right now I am sort of all over the map with the news so...I need to mellow out a bit and chew on what has transpired. Obviously I will keep you updated. With that said, need to get back to work!!!

Till tomorrow, xo P

Valentine's Day....whatever!

I am not a cynical woman nor a pessimist. I don't however feel any real love for this particular celebrated day. I have always had a chip on my shoulder on this day. Whether I was in a relationship or not. When I was in a relationship...this day was always a bust. I really don't want to get into it with you, just saying!

For the brief amount of time I spent on Facebook today, I could see that there is some real romance among couples and I do think that that is beautiful. Good for them! I came over to my parent's house this morning to work and I see that my stepfather got my mom a dozen roses and this really awesome card.

I think it is because I am so sentimental that this day brings more irritation than love. I can't say that I have never had a loved one (boyfriend) show me a kind gesture...it just was always followed by a bad event of some kind. My good memories are quickly followed by bad memories. I really need to make NEW memories. That brings me to my single life which has been ongoing for almost 3 years now. OMG....3 years! Ok ok ok....it's ok! I am ok!!! WHATEVER!!!

Next topic; I had an oddly insane dream last night. The Kardashian sisters were in it and it was friggin weird. It was like we were living on another planet but it wasn't a planet it was some giant spaceship that had fallen apart and we...the citizens were left to fend for ourselves. I remember there being only chocolate cake to eat. I had my blackberry with me and Chory was there too. LMAO!!! I think I am still thinking about the trilogy that I just read: Hunger Games and it sort of resembles that. Speaking of that....I am SO FRIGGIN excited to see the movie! I can't wait!

I am going to get some work done and then I am going to the gym to workout all my  negative energy. Yuppers! xo P

Deep breath!

So here we are...Monday afternoon. I woke up well. I had the agenda for the day running through my mind in the minutes before I opened my eyes. I knew at that point that I would be busting ass today. I started my day by doing some home chores that really needed to be done. Got that done and happily! I knew I had to get some gas and I really wanted to wash my car so I did that too all before my chiropractor appointment at 11am. Upon my doctor putting his hands on my neck...I knew the news would be bad. The muscles holding my neck together are like bungee chords. Every time my doctor tried to apply some pressure to them...they would move from under his fingers. Can you imagine what that must feel like? SO WEIRD!! I don't like it but...he has to relieve the tension somehow. Once he was done adjusting my poor form...I came home and had some breakfast while getting right into the nitty gritty of my work. Had a minor spat with my mom. This upsets me! I feel like I am back to square one in terms of stress levels. I can feel my shoulders crunching up and some pain moving down my back. Wonderful!!!

Happy thoughts!!! I have 2 weeks until I leave for Argentina! I need it baaaaaad!

I had a good weekend! I worked Friday night. Nothing remarkable to share about that except that one of my regulars asked me to be his Valentine. SO SWEET!! He is really a sweetheart and so I said yes! Not too sure what that means really. I have to work all day and night tomorrow so it doesn't mean much. He did say he has a gift for me. Hmmm! Fascinated! Saturday I feel like I had a lot to do but come to think of it...I can't really remember what I did before 5pm. Ha!!! I ended up going to Toronto to visit with a bff. We had drinks followed by a kick ass movie called 'Safe House' with Denzel Washington and Ryan Reynolds. So so awesome! After the movie, we parted ways and I made my way to a bar where a dear friend of mine...'Ace' was hanging out with his friends. Joined them for last call. Had a blast! I spent all day yesterday snoozing on my couch and napping in my bed with the little turd. It was a pleasure of a day! Watched back to back movies. That is my ideal day! LOL

Of course after a day of complete rest comes a day of complete chaos. Ok! Fine! Bring it on! xo P

Alrighty then!

So here is the situation...I am growing tired of the brutal events that occur at my bar. If it isn't battling with belligerent patrons, it is dealing with my horrible new manager. I have had a very clean record over the past 2 years in terms of being right on the money with the money. I am anal and am a perfectionist. I view any variance to my clean record as a serious black mark on my otherwise very clean history.

Since this new manager has come around, there have been 2 occurrences where my til is short a substantial amount of money. Please let me start off by saying...this guy has his dirty paws on my til on Thursday nights. Why? Because it gets very busy and sometimes...the douche needs to step up and take some orders. This shouldn't be a problem in my eyes. The result of this however is that I lose control of what is happening with my til. At the end of the day...if this guy puts his hand on my money...he is equally responsible for whatever problem transpires. So, on occasion #1...I paid out 100% of the loss. I did have a serious discussion with my boss about this. During that discussion, I said very clearly that if something like this was to happen again...the dick would have to pony up 50% of the loss. I think this is fair and maybe even too fair considering this wouldn't have happened if that nerd didn't touch my money. I am diplomatic however. Because I did pay out all of the loss the first time, I not only had a discussion with my boss but also my manager. I told him that if this was to happen again...he will pay half. He agreed. Well.....last night was event #2. This time it was almost triple the loss of the first time. I almost lost my shit. I explained to him that he WILL pay half of that and to my surprise he told me NO!!! Can you friggin believe it?

So...I have made an executive decision. If the jackass gets away with not paying 50%...and in turn I have to pay 100%...I will quit! I refuse to let my boss take advantage of me in almost every single way. I am an unofficial bouncer, I am more of a manager than my actual manager, I am the one and only bartender that has been loyal and toughed out the hard times, I have a spotless record in terms of my money always checking out (before the loser arrived) and for my boss to take sides with that mo fo....is the ultimate shaft. Well...I have hit my threshold folks. We will see what tonight unfolds.

With that said, anyone know of any bartending/serving positions available? xo P

Hustle!

I have been hustling since 8am this morning and it will continue well into the night because tonight is Karaoke night at the bar and we all know how that goes. I have to tell you, my brain is running so fast...that my fingers are typing faster and I am actually getting my thoughts out faster than I can compute. Does that make any sense? LOL

I got a pretty kick as text from my bff this afternoon. She sent me an image of this super sexy guy flexing his abs and arms with his pants just above his naught bits. LMAO!!! What a treat that was!! I asked her who he was and she said she didn't know. She just found the image and thought I would like it. I did!!! Thank you for putting a smile on my face...#2!!! LOL

And so folks...I actually don't have enough time to spend with this blog today. I am dying to go pee.

Till tomorrow....xo P

LOL!!!

Gooooooooood morning! How is everybody doing today? I am in fabulous spirits. Yuppers! Feeling good and looking good doin it!!! LMAO

Can you feel the energy penetrating the screen? I hope so! I feel like I am radiating fabulousness!!! LMAO

Why so chipper you ask? For starters, I have nothing to complain about! Secondly, I had an awesome night at the bar last night. It was steady and was probably one of the best Tuesdays I have worked in ages. YAY! This guy came in who used to come in a lot but for some reason stopped. He went to give me a hug and asked me; what happened to you? I asked; what do you mean? He replied...you shrank! Ha!!! I had to get clarification because if he said I shrank in height, I would have had to hurt him. Instead he said I am half the size I was when he saw me last. I think that is an overstatement...but I will take the compliment anyways. YAY for me!

I am feeling all sorts of great pain from my past 2 workouts. I love my trainer. I don't think I have said that enough lately so let me say it again...I LOVE MY TRAINER!!! I am on the fence about going to the gym today. I know tomorrow is going to be a bitch of a day and therefore, fitting in a workout tomorrow is out of the question. Today it will have to be! All good! Getting results is very motivating.

I haven't got much more to report today. I have a slight case of ADD and really need to focus my mind on my work. Till tomorrow folks! xo P

Watch out!

I am sort of frustrated with the chronic pain that is now lingering in my neck. It is especially brutal in the morning. Can't decide if it's due to the way I sleep or the kind of pillows that I have. Either way...it sucks!!! I love my pillows and they were expensive. I am not getting rid of them. As for the way I sleep...not much I can do about that! Ugggghh!!!

It has been an action packed day so far. I decided to back up my bff on her mission to look after her cat which is on his death bed. The assholes at animal control won't let her see him unless she pays this astronomical amount of money first. BRUTAL! I have to say this is incredibly upsetting. Uggghh! I would much rather not think about this. The tension and stress of thinking that these establishments function in this way totally infuriates me to no end. I now have a new mission in life. I want to set up a foundation that helps people who have gone through some traumatic experience and can't afford to help out their animals that have suffered from this event whether it be a fire, a car accident, a tornado or hurricane....whatever...this foundation will pay for all the services that their pets need in order to recuperate and get back to a healthy lifestyle. If that isn't possible than this foundation will provide counselling for a lost animal and will also look after the fees incurred with euthanasia. Aside from that, this mission includes nailing those bastards (Toronto Animal Services) to the wall for such horrific protocols and for such a lack of compassion. Makes me sick to my stomach!!! Watch out TAS...I am all over you like white on rice!

I have so much work to do between now and my shift at the bar...I really need to get to it. So...till tomorrow! xo P

Holy Bejesus!

Where do I start? I think I need to focus on the critical elements. Need to share and thus need to sort things out in my mind cause as per my doctor, the chiropractor...he says I really need to try to relax. I went to see him this morning...and he was struggling to loosen the muscles around my neck. This is  a huge problem. With every little stress...it sits right at the base of my neck and moves around from there. With the combination of recovery from my sprain (neck) and daily stresses...the muscles are f***ed!!! Ugggghhhh!!! This sucks!!! He did do his job however. I am in a better spot than I was before I saw him...but of course I was blasted with a massive stress right after my appointment and I feel like I am back at square one.

The blast? My bff was caught in a fire last night. She was staying with a friend of hers. The two of them partied at my bar for Superbowl yesterday. Left and went back to his place. At around 3am the apartment building burnt down. The alarm did not sound and so by the time they woke up, they were already inhaling smoke and virtually choking to death. My bff and her friend manage to escape from a window with a dog in tow. She had 2 cats there as well and...one of them got away on its own and the other....in the hospital in an oxygen chamber. THIS BREAKS MY HEART!!! Granted it could have been so much worse...but it doesn't reduce to scariness of it all. With that said, I am going to go and visit her this afternoon. Ugggggghhh!!!

So yesterday was Superbowl Sunday. I couldn't give two shits about football let alone Superbowl. I do realize that this is one of the biggest events of the year and as such, my bar asked for extra hands on deck. More specifically mine! There were 2 bartenders plus one manager from 5 to 10pm. The bar was rammed and all was well...more or less. I would say that the only outburst during that time was from this young lady (about mid 30's). She obviously drank too much and got wildly belligerent. She wanted to beat the other bartender and myself up. She tried to beat up my bff's friend and she did get in a scarp with my bff...and they are friends. This chick was out of control!!!! After 10pm...the bar more or less settled down and only I was on duty till 3am. I would like to tell you that it was smooth sailing...but that would be a dream. Somewhere between 10-midnight...there was this jack ass Russian guy who is one scary mo fo! He has come in before with another dude. I have had to kick them out twice before. Well last night was no different. One of the 2 dudes left...the one that was totally hammered leaving the scary one behind. I served him 3 beers and then politely asked him to leave because he was getting freaky with me. I decided to not take my usual route by escorting him out....thank goodness I kept my cool. This guy was carrying an ice pick. He is sitting directly in front of me at the bar...he is asking me for another beer to which my reply was no. I happened to look at his hands and see the ice pick in his right hand. I immediately have a mini heart attack. To my relief, I had 2 awesome regulars on either side of him that saw what I saw and after 15 minutes of discussion...that scary man left.

And we wonder why my neck is f***ed!!!! 3 weeks till vacation! Can I make it? LMAO

xo P

Almost!

Last night at work...was pretty interesting to say the least. It was so busy right from my arrival that I was questioning the people that were there...are they really going to make it all night long? These people usually show up later and do stay till the end. Hmmm!! Anyways....the bar was virtually empty around 1pm. Fine with me. Was busting ass from 7 to 1pm. It was a special night. I had to kick one customer out. Somehow he came back from wherever he went and had a fall. Another one of my customers who was outside came in sort of frantic and told me to call an ambulance. I did! The dude keeled over and smashed his head on the ground and had a gaping wound on his head. Uggggh!!! Brutal!!! At least he didn't fight anyone. Ha!

Me on the other hand...I almost got to beat someone up. There was this kid who comes in most Thursdays. He is always hitting on me. Well, last night I guess he grew a pair of balls, either that or he simply had a serious loser moment because he took his affections to the next level. As I pass by him, he grabs me and goes to kiss my neck under my jaw. He was successful at catching me off guard. He was successful at totally violating my personal space. As soon as that happened, I turn to face him and I took one split second to contemplate punching him or simply slapping him. I went with that latter. I took a stance and I made sure I had some force behind my hand that made contact with the right side of his face. Can you believe this? The f***er said he liked it!!! Uggggggh! Next time...it will be a punch for sure!

Big sigh here....lol!

My neck is still bothering me. Sleeping always puts me back a few steps. Throughout the day it gets better. I think I should be good for a couple workouts this weekend. HOPEFULLY! I don't have much of a weekend seeing as I have to work tonight and Sunday afternoon/evening for the Superbowl. It's all good though. I need the money!

Well folks, I hope you all have an amazing weekend! See you on the flip side! xo P

Helping Hand!!!

Good day world! I think it is safe to say that I am in good spirits even though I am still battling some serious pain in my neck region. Sitting here isn't helping. I think that being upright brings stress onto my shoulders and then the pain gets even worse. When I am lying down...it isn't so bad as long as I have proper pillows under me. This sort of sucks because I won't be able to get horizontal for awhile...which means I have to tolerate this discomfort (to put it mildly) for awhile.

Today is Thursday. We know what that means....don't we? It is Karaoke day at my bar. YAY LOVE IT! Sort of!! LOL I have decided that I really don't like my new manager. He is brutal! Seeing as I will have to work closely with him tonight doesn't make happy at all. Hmmm!!!

So, I am going to take some time today...like right now to talk to everyone out there...those of you who read my blogs. We all know that I have received my real estate license. We do know that I have completed my first double ended deal and thus have gotten my feet wet. Of course we all know that I work hand in hand with my mom...so if there is any fear out there that I can't do my job or that I am too green to be of any help to anyone who is considering a real estate transaction....think again! I have the best real estate agent in my corner. With all that said...I am reaching out to everyone...all of you...please do think of me if you're thinking about anything to do with real estate or hear of anyone thinking about a sell or buy. I need you my friends and family. I am so ready to give anyone or everyone my all if you would just give me a chance. Please and Thank you!!

xo P

Still hurtin'!

Ok...so my neck is still pooched....grrr!!! Nothing I can do about it which really sucks ass!

I had an awesome night last night at the bar. Had a few of my awesome customers come in to entertain me and I had one of my dear friends...Ace...come in for a visit. Good times!!

Well folks...I actually don't have that much on my mind today. I can't say that there is anything bothering me or taking up precious brain power. I happened to be scrolling through my Facebook news feed and fell on a picture of a friend of mine who is very pregnant. I think she is due some time this spring...in fact, I think she is due next month. Holy Moses!!! LOL

I am feeling slightly disgruntled because I haven't been able to get to my usual workouts with my neck being all screwy. This is a thorn in my side. Hmmmm!!! I can either force myself to go to the gym and risk hurting myself even more...or I can sit tight till it passes and then go balls to the wall. FACK!

I do want to share something with you...my wish list of things to buy when I finally get paid from the deals that I just closed a couple weeks ago;
1. buy a laptop
2. buy a new bed frame and wall unit
3. buy summer tires

That's it! Yayyyyyyy...finally...I will be able to afford the big ticket items that I have been waiting for for so long. Celebrations....tonight!!! xoxox