Paula....the bouncer!

So I am not too sure what happens to some people over the holiday season, maybe they think they can be total hooligans or function with a complete lack of respect for humanity...no idea! Either way, I don't care. Their behavior is unacceptable. Over the past 3 weeks there have been 4 outbursts from customers at my bar. Each of those times I have had to get physical with these m***** f***ers! I am beyond tired of this behavior. If I tell you I am not serving you anymore and I want you to leave...the correct reaction would be to LEAVE!!! You do not fight the bartender. This is not the way to succeed at attaining your goals of either staying at the bar or getting another drink.

Last night was the last straw for me. I had 3 guys holding me back from beating the crap out of a 5'11 big guy. I did try to go to town on him. I managed to nail him in the balls but what I really wanted to do was punch him in the face. I was injured in the process of being held back. This just goes to show me how intent I was on getting this guy. I did tell my boss that I will not tolerate this anymore. In an attempt to appease me, my boss refrained from accepting the 15% that I have to tip him out at the end of each shift. Like that is going to shut me up? I think not!

I am a bit of a loss of what to do now. I can't tell you that I can keep my cool if yet another outburst occurs. I can't tell you that I will not be compelled to beat the shit out of the next person who defies my demands. Part of the reason why I am so angry is because my boss does ABSOLUTELY NOTHING to deal with matters. So it is either I tolerate the bad behavior, let these horrible people act out and possibly hurt or destroy someone or the bar...OR I stand up and try to deal with these assholes and remove them from the premises. The latter tends to be my choice because I refuse to let these assholes take over and show me, my boss and the bar complete disrespect.

I know I know....you are probably saying "just call the cops". Well....my friends....I tried that. They don't come to my bar unless I need an ambulance or someone has a weapon. I am sure your next thought is for us to get a bouncer. Ha...I demanded that last year when I almost got stabbed and didn't get it then. I am surely not going to get it now when all I am dealing with are drunken assholes.

I don't get it! I had 5 months of peace and fabulousness. Why now? What is happening? Is it going to last? I have to stay there for at least another month. Uggggh!!!!! Universe....send me a sign please!!!!

xo P

LOL....

I was just showing my mom pictures from Monday evening/night...lol!!! I went up north on Monday to visit my bbbff who was renting a cottage north of Collingwood for a couple weeks. I went to spend the day and night with her for her birthday. I had an amazing dinner at this cottage with her, her fiance and her family. SO GREAT! I love this family...they are so warm and kind and loving...granted I have known them for 19 years, I guess you could say they are like a second family. Once dinner was cleaned up we went right into dessert and then my bff and I had to get ready to go out at which point we would meet up with another girlfriend who was in the village (Blue Mountain) with a friend of hers. Thankfully my bff's fiance offered to be DD cause it was total annihilation for the rest of us.

We arrive at an Irish pub in the village and almost immediately discover our friends who were there waiting for us. We were sort of late and my friends definitely were not waiting for us to start the party...in fact, they were totally hammered by the time we reached them. LOL!!! All good though. Didn't take me long to catch up. Drinking double gin/tonics accompanied by shots of Southern Comfort...took no time at all! LOL So there we are....dancing, drinking, laughing and having a blast. It came to an end when a bouncer approached us and asked us to leave because one of our team members was a bit out of control, this would be my gf's friend. So we left in peace and just went to the next bar. Of course they let us in....we were one of the few people there. My team consisted of 5 people...a great addition to the 5 other people in this club. LMAO! We totally took over, asked the DJ to play our tunes (which he did) and totally rocked out!

I don't remember leaving that bar. I don't remember the car ride home. I don't remember hitting the couch and passing out. I woke up Tuesday morning still in my clothes, still wearing my winter jacket. LOL!!

I miss my bff so much it almost hurts. I know that my time with her on Monday was incredibly limited but that is ok...I get to spend this whole weekend with her and her absolutely fabulous fiance. He reminds me a little bit of my brother in law in that he is totally head over heels for his woman and is the most loving, supportive, kind, beautiful and bottom line awesome man. I can only hope that a guy like that exits for me. Now...I can safely say that the biggest and most incredible event to take place over this holiday season is my bff asking me to be her Maid of Honor. Melts my heart!!! So folks, looks like I am going to Europe on 2013. YAYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!

Peace out folks! xo P

Here we goooooooooooooooooooooooooo........!

Well...here we are folks, 2 days to go for Christmas. I am pretty darn excited about things but very slightly sad. I always remember all excitement and energy leading up to Christmas day and then you go through it and then it is as if the world flat lines. That is the kind of shitty part about Christmas...there really is an overload of passion and drive for this event and then we get to the climax that only really lasts a day and then it is over. We spend about 2 months preparing for this event and the bottom line is that it really is all about the preparation and pre-holiday cheer. Oh well...I will take that! I have been having such a great time over the past few weeks. The anticipation of seeing my friends who have come in from afar was overwhelming and is now materializing. I am having lunch with one of them in 45 minutes. Can't wait to see him. I will hopefully connect with another one on Saturday or sometime next week and then I get to see another one on Monday. Things are coming to a head! LOVE IT!

Anywho...last night was amazing minus a few events. I am not going to get into it. I just wanted to share that with each day that I work there the bond between myself and my boss and my customers grows stronger and stronger. On a sad note; my night manager/barback is leaving me...the bar! Tonight is his last night and this not only makes me sad but scared. Who will I get next? EEEKKK....pains me to think about it! I will be showing him the love for his departure. I fully intend on getting farewell balloons filled with helium so that towards the end of the night and after many drinks, I can play with the helium in those balloons...if you know what I mean!!! LOL I think I might get a cake too! We'll see!

And so...this is my last blog till Tuesday the 27th. Why? Because Monday I am heading out of town for the day/night...if things are still on cue. With that said;

Sending tons of love out to the universe. Please be safe in all that you do!!! Peace love and rock n roll! xo P

I think I have been saved!!!! Time will tell!

Can I really be so lucky? Looks like it! I have to thank my totally amazing mom once again for introducing me to another angel. This one is a chiropractor who is already on the path to saving my life.

So my mom has been seeing this guy for awhile now. Her problems are very different from mine...but thankfully her healer can and will heal me too. I went to meet him last night at 6pm. He took xrays and a scan of my spine. What I already knew was that I didn't have the curvature where the cervical vertebrae are. For those of you not totally aware of the human anatomy, the cervical vertebrae start at your brain stem and end just above your shoulders and consists of 7 vertebrae. Not having that curvature has lead to many many problems for me and for a very long time....25 years to be exact. This isn't the biggest problem! Take a look at the pic...

Where the red section is...imagine no bend there....that is me! Then at the end of the yellow section, this is where I have the most trouble. Lots of issues here. By issues I mean, because the actual vertebrae are in poor placement (known as vertebral subluxation) is why there is pressure on the nerves. As a result, the corresponding body parts that are connected to the nerves that are under pressure, they are seriously struggling. In my case, this would be my lungs, kidneys, intestines, spleen, adrenal glands and a few others. What this means is that my immune system has been compromised for a long time now, that my intestines are not functioning at full capacity and that all the other organs that I listed are not healthy. Because my body is working so hard at dealing with this is why my threshold has been exceeded and why the pain has climbed up to the next compromised location....my neck and shoulders.
FACK!!!

It's all good now though. We have found the problems and he can fix them...me! YAYYYYYYYYY!!!!

I wish you knew what this means for me! The first time I sprained my neck was when I was 6. Since then...it happens once a year and in between those events, I struggle tremendously with pain. To now know that I can mend this problem...is the biggest and best gift ever.

Gosh darn I love my mom!!!!  xo P

Feel it!

Oy....can we say pain? I did a very irregular workout with my trainer yesterday. We did a one on one zumba class mixed with some training. We would hit up 3 songs and then pick up some weights then go back to zumba and do another couple songs and then hit up the weights and so on for an hour. What we do with those weights is friggin brutal and intense...by far not my favorite but by far the most critical to shaping my body. Because we did a lot of maneuvering with weights over my head is why my neck and shoulder muscles are in some discomfort to put it mildly. My entire middle section is in pain, my arse is in major pain, my inner thighs and hams are in pain. Please don't get me wrong...I love it. Maybe not the neck pain...but the rest...love it! With all that said, trying to get out of bed this morning was an adventure as was putting on my socks, sitting on the can, driving my car...and now sitting here to write my blog....lol!!! Good times!

I am going to get my gray hairs coloured in 2 hours....SO FRIGGIN EXCITED!!!! Uggghhhh, there is nothing worse than having to look at my gray hair everyday. I might have to celebrate this occasion..lol!

Speaking of celebrating...lol...I feel like I have been doing much of it. I think it is because of the festive vibes floating around. I am in a very festive mood. I love Christmas. Last night I had an amazing night at the bar. Pulled in record sales ($$$) for a Tuesday. So great! Had a blast and felt the love from all my regulars.

OMG...Christmas is 4 days away...AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!

Well folks, I am suffering from slight ADD today which is why I am tapping out a bit early. Happy Hump Day! xo P

This and that!

So we have 5 more days until Christmas and 6 days before I get my first real day off in AGES! I am beside myself with excitement. There is so much action happening in my world these days...I want to say I am totally exhausted...and I am but I am not going to complain about it. I asked for it and planned it this way.

I am going to see my trainer today in 2 hours and I will eliminate some lingering negative energy. I hope we do some boxing. Could really use that kind of exercise. I have no rage or anger in me...I think it is just some bad energy that needs to leave my body. I think it is from my illness a couple weeks back. Who cares! Need boxing.
I had a great night at the bar last night. My wonderful and caring boss showed me the love and gave me a bit of a bonus. Nothing major but it is the sentiment that counts. Man...I love them! I don't care one bit that Mondays and Tuesdays are slow. I don't care that I could be making more money somewhere else...I love these people and it is a second home to me now.

I am very much looking forward to tomorrow. I am getting my hair done. Away with the grays....YAY!!! I swear, aside from getting my nails done, getting my hair done is one of the most rewarding things I can do for myself. It makes you feel whole again...in some way...lol! So ya...tomorrow I will be beautiful again! Jokes!

Peace out world! xo P

Sometimes I shock myself....

Happy Monday world. I trust that everyone had a great weekend....hopefully!

I had a great weekend....thanks for asking! LOL

I had to work Friday night as always and it was awesome. I have to tell you....I really love working there. It is so so so different than last year. It has done a 180 in my eyes. LOVE IT!!! Then comes Saturday and I didn't do a whole lot because I, for once, didn't have a lot to do. This was a treat. I did have plans to have dinner at my sister's. Had a great time there...as always.

This leads us to yesterday...Sunday. What a special day. I woke up early to look after my little guy and once I am up...I am up. So I made breakfast and then watched t.v. for a bit. I decided I was still tired and went right back to bed. This is incredibly special for me because I NEVER do this. Once I woke up from that nap I checked my phone and saw that I had gotten a very special message around midnight from my friend 'Ace'....I won't repeat it. He was hammered. I called him up to thank him for that message and we decided to have a coffee so I went to his place and had a coffee. From there I went home to relax for a bit before getting ready to head out on a mission. This mission was to go and collect some money from a bartender at another bar....the one that ran out on her tab. I was pleasantly surprised by her...she apologized and gave me the money...but only after she cut me off from drinking at her bar; apparently we were too loud. Let me preface this by saying that I brought one of my bffs for moral support and we both had a few drinks (and many shots). Once cut off from that bar...we went to another bar down the street...got pulled in from a few of my regulars (from my bar) that wanted to party with me. Had a blast!!! From there we went to a pub in my hood. Much of what transpired at this bar has been lost due to the many many drinks and shots that were had. I am confident however that I had a friggin amazing time. Just found out that my bff filmed me dancing by myself...LMAO!!!!

I also happened to run in to a friend from way back in the day. He is actually the brother of my ex ex boyfriend. So odd!!!! But it was good to see him.

So last night was my Saturday night in terms of getting crazy. Loved every second of it!

Now...back to the grind! xo P

Hungry!

Ok it's Friday and I am just about to head out for some lunch with one of my bffs. LOVE IT!!! I have put in a couple hours of work and to get this kind of a break is such a treat. Granted I have to drive to Toronto and might have to deal with some ugly traffic, small price to pay to see one of my bestest girlfriends.

Speaking of best friends, my bbbbbbf is arriving from Europe on Monday...YAYYYYYY!!!! Granted I won't be able to see her prior to a week Monday...it will be heavenly either way. Uggghh...this is going to be a great Christmas/ New Year. On Wednesday I see my dear friend who's in town from B.C. and then I see another bff over next weekend who's in town from Montreal. Good times!!!

I had an amazing night at the bar last night. I was action packed and kept me very much on my toes...but I love that! Wish every night was like that. I thought I would be exhausted seeing as I had a couple drinks with lunch...I did good! Speaking of yesterday's lunch...with Re/Max head office and our 3 branches all together at the Old Mill was pretty spectacular. Met some really incredible people thanx to my mom who sort of shocked me. I guess I get my charisma from her. She is amazing with people and is such a schmoozer....who knew?!!! So great!!!

Well folks...that is all I got for today. Gots to boogie for lunch!!! Have an amazing weekend! xo P

Doesn't feel like December 15th!

Omg...it is so warm outside. I love it and don't love it all at once. It doesn't feel right...you know? Apparently it is supposed to get much colder tomorrow and the following day. GREAT! (Hint of sarcasm there!)

Yesterday was a good day. I spent a few hours with my cousin and his fiance at their place. It is always a pleasure to be with them. We had much to catch up on and much to chat about...as it turns out they are going to Montreal for New Years as well. It would be fantastic to meet up with them there. Hope it happens! From there it took me 1.5 hours to get back to my hood from Forest Hill. Uggghhh!!! I went straight to my sister's place to visit with my bro-in-law and nephew for a bit. I love my family!!! From there I went to pick up Choochoo from my mom's place and then I went home. It was a mellow day....a much needed mellow day. I had a chat with my dear dear friend who lives in B.C. I am so excited to see him next week.

So I am still struggling with the friggin cough that just won't go away. I am on day 2 of taking Benadryl cough syrup and sucking on Halls as if there was no tomorrow. Ugggghhh! I woke up this morning and I feel like I have strained muscles under my tongue from so much coughing. Not to mention, I didn't sleep well either. These cough attacks are taking over. Makes no sense to me!!!

I am all done up for this event I am going to with my mom shortly. I guess it is RE/MAX corporate holding this event for its Realtors. Should be interesting. I hope I meet some cool people. Will tell you about it tomorrow.

Well folks...that's all I got for today! xo P

That is messed up!!!

So I really only have 2 things I want to talk about today. Both of these events has left me feeling flat and concerned.

Event #1: Yesterday evening I was getting ready to go to work at the bar. There was still light out so it must have been about 5pm ish. I happened to go to my sliding door to the terrace just to check out the scene. I pull the drapes aside and immediately notice the dead carcass of a duck that probably weighed 15lbs give or take when it was alive. WTF is a dead duck doing on my terrace? Let me back that up....WTF is a duck doing in my area? I have NEVER seen a duck on my property let alone on my terrace. I put my CSI hat on and decided to investigate a little. My observations lead me to believe that this animal had been shot or maimed in some way....either it was delivered to my terrace out of a malicious act by someone or it happened to make it's way up a flight of stairs and died under my patio chair. There was a small pool of blood a foot away from it which suggests that it was alive for a bit and probably suffered. Ugghhhh....I have no idea! I was totally upset by this discovery. There was no way that I was going to remove this poor dead creature from the property...so I immediately called my stepfather to look after that. Hopefully he did! I haven't looked back there yet. EKKK!!! My heart goes out to this animal. I hope he/she is in duck heaven.

Event #2: Last night was a supremely dead night at the bar. BRUTAL! I think we sold only $200 over the 7 hours. Again...BRUTAL! It was about 8pm when one of my regulars walked in. He is a sweet man, about 45 years old...always well groomed and dressed well. He only ever drinks one Corona and then hits the road. Over the time he takes to have that drink...we manage to squeeze in some conversation. I have learned much about this man over time. He is sort of an angel in that he does what I am sure no one else would like to do for a living. Just like it takes a special person to be a surgeon or a lawyer or a vet or shit like that....it takes a VERY special person to look after the terminal cancer patients in the palliative care department. He is amazing! What makes this ironic is that he was diagnosed with terminal cancer over the weekend and was given 3 months to live. This is what he told me while drinking his Corona last night. I cried! He cried! We both cried! His girlfriend left him. His whole family is in Europe. He was telling me he wanted to pull one of the stunts that a few patients have pulled. He described a couple scenarios to me. One patient was a 37 year old business man who was loaded to the tits and could have afforded to extend his life but he chose not to and in contrast told my customer he didn't want any care whatsoever, didn't want any visitors whatsoever and no one could change his mind. He died in 7 days. My customer was describing this to me because he had intended on taking that path himself. I was livid with his commentary and ideology. I expressed my anger and explained that this was not the way to go. We chatted for a couple hours. He had 2 Coronas instead the usual one. By the end of it...after many tears and much discussion, I think I managed to convince him to quit his job and go to Europe to spend time with his family before coming back and getting into treatment. I ordered him to continue coming to see me until he was to leave on his trip to visit his family. He accepted!!! LOL

That was my day/night yesterday folks. Not the most festive day...but...I am happy I got to be an ear and a heart for some people at the bar.

xo P

Told you so.....

Yup....in a lot of pain today. I would like to say good pain....but it actually isn't. Well....part of it is. My bum, legs and waist are suffering from the good pain while my back is in pain...but a very uncomfortable pain. This is making things difficult for me today. We did do a lot of new exercises yesterday and so my body had to adjust itself accordingly. It is all good. Just going to have to take 'er easy today.

I have had this friggin persistent cough for almost a week now and it is driving me CRAZY!!! My poor throat hurts from coughing so much.

I have to deliver newsletters today....uggghhh!!! I NEED A VACATION badly!!! I have 3 months to go before I am taking one. Uggggghhh! I was actually visualizing my trip to Argentina and Uruguay. I was literally doing absolutely NOTHING and loving it. In my visions I was lying on the beach suntanning. I think that is what I will do the whole time I am in Uruguay. While in Argentina, I will be poolside everyday working on my tan and then in the evenings visiting with family and friends. Man....I can NOT wait!!! I might squeeze in some shopping actually....lol! Maybe even a tattoo...lmao!

Last night was a good night at the bar...sort of! It was not busy but I stayed busy...somehow...lol! Mystery man came in and kept me entertained. It almost felt like a date because we were sitting at the bar chatting for hours. Good times! The more I get to know him, the more I like him. He has these piercing deep blue eyes and he will randomly say something so inquisitive and shock me a little bit. I discovered he is a Leo! I just did some reading about Gemini and Leo compatibility...lol...have a read;

"When a Leo and a Gemini team up they can show more sparkle than the diamond. With their love of laughter and life they've got a lot in common and can even teach each other a thing or two.Those glittering Geminis will make their lovely Lions relax and they in turn can transmit to the twinkling twins a little of their own gorgeous generosity and wonderful warmth.

The Geminian way with words and the Lion's flair for forgiveness, should be able to patch up any punctures in their partnership. There's a thoroughly theatrical atmosphere to this alliance and this couple's idea of a terrific time is to spend time at the cinema, and book a box for the ballet, followed by a fantastic feed-up at a ritzy restaurant before rushing off home for an intercourse. Once they slip between the silk sheets, the Leo can be such a luscious lover that even a twin will be lost for words.They'll love the sensation of melting into each other's arms and the Geminian will respond even more warmly than with some other signs.Once out of bed, they continue to be a caring couple and the child like charm of the Gemini will captivate that large Leo heart."

How cool is that? LOL I guess we'll have to see how things pan out there! Keep you posted! xo

Random thoughts....

Saw Breaking Dawn; Twilight Saga yesterday. I LOVED IT!!!! The beginning was slow and a little silly but the middle and end....brilliant. Now we have to wait another friggin year before we get to see that last segment to that series. FACK!!! LOL

Count downs:
1. 2 days till I visit with my cousin and his fiance for lunch.
2. 10 days till I see one of my dear dear friends
3. 11 days till I see the one of my bffs
4. 14 days till I see my bbbbbff
5. Still trying to arrange a visit with 2 other bffs of mine.

So I have had 3 nights to sleep on an issue that I lightly talked about on Friday. I still want to write about it. I am fully aware of the consequences of discussing this issue and yet...I am still going to write my thoughts down. I have always been honest with my blog. I have always written what is bothering me, why stop now?! Granted, writing my thoughts and feelings has pissed off a couple people. To my defence, this is my journal....I can write what I want!

My usual routine every morning is to check my emails and deal with that first and then go to facebook and deal with that and finally I will come to my blog and write. Friday morning I got and read an email from this person who's friendship with me has been reduced to nothing. What really concerns me is how she makes me feel. She is the second person over the past 2 years to make me feel like I am certifiably insane. This is very unhealthy. Everyday, I consider and reconsider and consider again....wtf she is talking about. I simply don't get it. The fact is, I had a concern that should have been considered and it wasn't. Instead, my concern was thrown out the door and what was left was nothing but horrible and negative energy on both our ends. I strongly believe I am humble enough to hear this person's argument....but only if that person shares the humility and acknowledges my concern. Takes 2 to tango...not one. This friendship needs both people to give a shit....not just one. I am not going to rehash my contributions to this friendship...what would be the point in that? 

This email consisted of 2 sentiments and 1 criticism:
1. She cares
2. She doesn't care
3. My blogs are insulting

Ok!

Not too sure what to do with this information. As the days move on...I am feeling less and less angry/sad/frustrated. Maybe that is all I can do....is give this friendship (or whatever you want to call it!) time. It is clear to me that she reads my blogs, hence the criticism...I will say this; I will never apologize for my writing...EVER!!!! It is my safe place and my sanity.

On a lighter note; I am seeing my trainer today. It has been 2 weeks since I have seen her. EEEKKK! I am sure I am going to be suffering from the great pain tomorrow. Good times!!

Happy Monday!
xo P

Darn!!!

Here's a thought; sometimes something happens to me right before I write my blog and as a result I want to write about it. The catch? I realize that maybe I need to sleep on what has transpired before writing about it. Why? It is in my nature to react and act out based on that reaction; this doesn't really leave any room for contemplation and rationalization. The problem? Sometimes my actions (based on a reaction) can instigate problems.

I would give you an example but I would have to put in play what has happened today and I am thinking, maybe I need to sit on this before I speak of it.

My mind f*** for the day; forget about it!!!!! This is a very difficult thing for me to do. Uggghhhhh!!!

I had a really great night last night. LOL!!! As we all know, last Thursday I was dying from tonsillitis and this Thursday....was jacked up with positive, festive energy and had an amazing night at the bar. Good times!

It is Friday. Yes it is! I am sitting here....seriously struggling to not think about what has happened this morning. It is consuming all of my brain power. What to do? Hmmmmm!!!

Going to see Breaking Dawn on Sunday with my sister. Super duper excited about that. As for tomorrow...have work to do during the day. I will then proceed to get ready for an afternoon/evening party at one of my customer's Christmas party. My attendance at this party will follow a drop in at another bar down the street from mine. There was this girl/lady who came into my bar for drinks on her first date with this guy. Round one was paid for by the guy, round 2 was supposed to be paid by the woman....cause she said so. They accumulated a $60 tab and she and her dude left without paying. Silly girl...she works 2 blocks down from my bar and she told me what her shifts were. So Saturday evening...going to her bar and I will collect the $60 she owes me (the bar). BRUTAL!!! Who does this? I mean really!! Running out on a tab is such a foreign concept to me....I simply don't get it! Not even in my most debilitated state of hammeredness have I EVER run out on a tab. Ugggghhh!!!

Another thought: I got a complaint regarding my blogs. Someone actually complained about me writing this blog. That makes 2 people to date who have had an issue with my writing. I could probably write a friggin novel about this topic...but it is Friday, I want to stay in a good mood and we are only 16 days away from Christmas and 17 days away from seeing my bbbbbbbbff.

F*** it!!!

Have a great weekend! xo P

Laughs all around!

Man...it is sunny out today. Sort of deceiving though...cause it is Baltic out there. I am doing a serious mental prep to go out there and deliver newsletters for my business. I will have to make sure to bring gloves and a hat.

It is Thursday....YAY!!! LOL!! I am happy because hopefully I will make some serious money tonight...and hopefully I can recoup what I lost from a missed shift on Monday. That would be nice! I am also sort of excited because I will maybe get to see the man that I am going out on a date with next Wednesday. He puts a smile on my face.

So, I went to visit my sister and nephew yesterday...always a pleasure. She confirmed that we are in fact going to see Breaking Dawn on Sunday....YAYYYYYYYYY!!!! So friggin excited!!! Speaking of that, I was at Shoppers yesterday and I happened to glance at the Hollywood smut mags hanging out by the cash...and I read "RPAT and Kristen Stewart...getting married!". WTF is that? Seriously!!! Common!!! I almost vomited in my mouth! BRUTAL!!!!

So back to my visit with my sister and nephew...I know all parents think their kids are geniuses. However, call me biased, but my nephew is sort of mind blowing. Granted my sister has genius tendencies with book smarts and she comes from parents that have genius tendencies...it was bound to come out in my 3 year old nephew. No offence to my bro-in-law. He is wicked cool...and my nephew gets the coolness from him. LOL!!! Sorry sistah! This kid is hysterical. Yesterday I was playing with him and I had to grab his toes...just cause. I took his socks off and made a reference to toe jam...lol!! He says "leave my toe jam alone and put my socks back on!". Let me remind you...he's 3 years old!!! Holy shit balls man! LMAO I love my family!!!

From that visit with my family, I went to go and visit another dear friend. I have spoken of this friend many a time. This is a very special friendship. I met him through one of my bffs....who now lives in B.C. I would only see this guy when I saw my bff. Now that my bff is gone...it has given rise to a blooming friendship with this guy...let's call him Ace. LOL!!! I laugh because we watched Ace Venture Pet Detective last night...love that movie. Not only did I laugh my ass off with the movie....but Ace is pretty hysterical all on his own. He's a realtor...but should be a comedian. Good times!!! Thank you Ace....we'll have to do that again!

There it is folks...another day in the life of Paula! Peace out! xo P

Big smiles....

Woke up smiling...how about that for a Wednesday morning?! I had an interesting evening at the bar last night, my first night back since I was sick. I was full of energy and ready to go. Typically, I would have struggled with last night being so slow...but not this time. I was energized right till the end. Good thing too....shit went down...as always. Between a serious leak with the hot water tank and one of my favorite customers beating up another customer...there was enough action to keep anyone on their toes. LOL!!!

Let's call this favorite customer 'A' (for argument sake) and the guy he beat up 'B'. So everyone is chilling out having drinks and all is well. B decides to get a little excited about himself...he's 20. He's talking a lot of s***...but that is to be expected from a young man. B ends up saying something pretty stupid and it was not only directed to me but was about me. This is not the first time I hear this kind of thing...I really am quite numb to the sentiment. I couldn't have cared less about the comment, in fact...I was washing dishes and didn't think anything of it. Please note; it wasn't mean....it was meant to be a compliment but was said in a derogatory manner which wasn't polite or well mannered. Well...A was less than impressed and decided to look after matters. A approached B and put his hand on B's arm and simply said "that was inappropriate, could you please apologize to Paula!". B didn't like the approach and then the energy between the 2 of them escalated and within minutes....the 2 of them are brawling. BRUTAL!!! What you need to know about A is that he is 6'4, 230lbs while B is 5'7 maybe 170lbs give or take. Not a fair fight at all.

I managed to separate the 2 of them and the rest of the night was mellow....except for the leak in the basement. LOL!!!

This was not what put a smile on my face this morning. I have been asked out on a date. This will be my first date since the days of Mr. Fabulous. It has been a long time. I am excited. We scheduled it for next Wednesday. He is picking me up and taking me out. It is a complete surprise what we will be doing...and I LOVE that!

Not to mention...as the days push forward...my festive spirit and excitement levels rise and I am totally and utterly full of joy. LOVE 'N IT!!!

Happy Hump Day to all!! xo P

Friends with Benefits....the movie.

I saw that movie the other day....like Sunday night I think. I actually really liked it. Maybe because Justin was in it and I absolutely love that man or maybe it was because it was actually funny or maybe because I am a sucker for love stories....as was Mila Kunis' character in the movie. Either way...I really like the movie.

It got me thinking...I am always thinking. No....that wasn't what it made me think about...lol! It made me think about what most single women think about...fairy tales; Prince Charming, Knight in shining armour, etc. When I watch these movies...I hate myself for doing so. Why? Because then I am forced to remember that I am missing the fabulousness of having a man in my life. If it wasn't for these freakn movies...I wouldn't care so much. I am sure you are asking....why do you watch movies then? To which my reply is.....because I am a masochist. I simply can't help myself. I LOVE MOVIES. I am a sucker for these romantic comedies....total sucker.

In the movie 'Friends with Benefits', Justin and Mila become the best of friends and throw sex into the mix which totally messes things up...naturally. They manage to clear some things up and try it again for it to fail terribly...again. They make is look so easy at the beginning. Just that friendship alone is amazing. I can relate. I have a dear dear dear friend who is a man. We have never had sex and will never have sex. How can I be so sure? That is a topic for another blog. Take my word for it! We've been friends for over 10 years. However...over the past year or so...it has been the best it has ever been. There is a love there...definitely but a different love than one that exists between 2 people in a non-friendship setting. Does that make sense? Moving along....

I think the point of my thoughts today is this; Prince Charming has been on my mind A LOT!!! Where the f*** are you man? LOL

A revelation for you; I think I have been purposefully sabotaging myself for awhile now. I am always saying out loud....to the world that I don't have time to nurture a relationship now. I work like 60 hours a week. The only social setting I have is at the bar and I am not so sure that I am going to meet Prince Charming there. Who knows!! Not me! Plus...everyone tells me I will meet someone through my business....there is hope there! LOL

I am not getting any younger....that is for sure!

Wish me luck folks! xo P

She's alive!!

Holy shit balls!! I honestly didn't think I was going to come around from this friggin illness. Uggggh!!!

Thursday night....I felt like I looked like a zombie. On the inside...my body was putrefying into waste...is how it felt. With each moment of work, I was getting worse and feeling worse. It got to the point where I had to excuse myself to lie down. I asked my manager to take over for a bit while I got horizontal in the hopes that it would give me back some energy. Maybe an hour later, I got called back....lol! I was lucky to get an hour! I popped some Advil....did a mind f*** on myself and hustled through the rest of the night. Man....I blew my mind! Drove home like an idiot....just wanted to get into my pj's and into my bed....desperately. I am sure the cops...if there were any...would have either just let me go...or would have taken me to the hospital. Either way...I didn't care! I got home...had to look after the little guy. Got my pj's on and hit the sack like a ton of bricks. Didn't sleep a wink though. Was in so much pain and discomfort....I wanted to die! I tossed and turned for about 5 hours at which point I called my mom to save me. She did! She picked me and the nerd up. We dropped the nerd off at my mom's and then went to the doctors. I couldn't stand or even walk. I felt like I was dying...slowly but surely.

I didn't have to wait long, like 5 minutes...pulled myself up a stair case and crashed on a seat and was bent over my lap waiting for the door to the exam room to open. When it did....I sloughed my way in. Doctor asked me what was wrong. I said I have strep throat. He argued with me! Ha.....don't argue with me. I have had it enough times to know what it is. Again....he disagreed and finally said I have tonsillitis. Fine!!! Whatever!!! HELP ME!!! He gave me antibiotics...which was to be expected. Had to go back downstairs...which was a very dangerous feat...with my eyes half closed, hunched over from pain and dizziness, finally get to the main level and told my mom....gotta sit down. She went to get the script.

We get back to the house. I immediately went to bed. I didn't leave that bed or that room for 48 hours straight....unless of course to pee or change my sopping wet clothes from the profuse sweating the took place over that time. I think I had to change 4 times over those 2 days. I have never known what it is like to sweat from every inch of your body....at the same time. My socks, pants, underwear, undershirt, shirt, neck, face, head, arms.....sweating...a lot! Disgusting! All that aside...not being able to swallow liquids, forget about solid foods, was problematic. When you sweat that much...you need to put something back in. This created a monster headache that lasted....wait...I still have it! Yesterday, Sunday....I could see the light. The excruciating pain that took over my whole body had dissipated. Now...the focus was on my upper body; shoulders and up. It was at this point my rage started to kick in. In my head I was saying....F*** you sickness....get the f*** out of my body. I hate you I hate you!

LMAO!!!

I can laugh about it now!

I decided to take charge. I didn't care that I couldn't swallow. I was determined to fight this thing like I would if I was boxing with my trainer. I went to solid foods. Between the stomach cramps, my tonsils being the size of ping pongs, the migraine, the pain in my shoulders....I had had enough! I ploughed through countless glasses of water, 5 cups of tea, 3 cups of hot soup, sandwiches, bananas....whatever I could get my hands on. I wanted this thing out of me. It was an accomplishment. I have to say I am pretty proud of myself. The stomach cramps persist. Whatever! I know that won't go away until I am done with the script. I am best friends with Advil...take that frequently throughout the day. My bastard tonsils have shrunken to the size of grapes (down from ping pong size). Hoping they will be the size of peas by tomorrow. As for my neck and shoulders....going to put a hot pack on them today.

As for my brain and emotional well-being? Ha!!! Let's revisit that tomorrow! xo P

Missing the snow....!!!

Can you believe today is the 1st of December? I can't!!! What is it about the Christmas holidays that puts everyone, including myself in such a great mood? I LOVE the sentiment of the holidays; the gathering of everyone...family and friends, the month long celebrations and the on-going Christmas cheer.

I LOVE IT!!!!

I woke up this morning to a phone call that I absolutely had to take at 8:30. From there, I tried to get back to sleep but only got to snooze land. I was coming to life and realizing that today is the first of December....the true beginning of Christmas celebrations. This put a smile on my face. From this topic my mind wondered on to my count down for my bbbbbbff's arrival on the 19th...but I won't get to see her till the 26th.....only 25 days to go. That is 3 weeks and 4 days......ahhhhhhhhhhh!!!! SO FRIGGIN EXCITED!!!

Every time I walk into my parent's house, I see their brilliantly fabulous Christmas tree which also puts a smile on my face. For a family that was never really into Christmas....I certainly love it more than any other holiday in the year.

As you can see, I am in a chipper mood. Although I am struggling with some pain both good and bad...I am not taken aback by it. We all know how much I love the post workout pain...but that being combined with the post massage pain...not the best combo. My upper back, shoulders and neck...not in good shape. I know it will pass!

I had an amazing sleep last night. Let me back track a bit. Yesterday being my day off from the bar....enables me to have some much needed quiet time. I had Thai food for dinner followed by a half bag of chocolate covered almonds while watching "My brother is an idiot" and some other movie that I can't remember for the life of me because I was snoozing while it was playing. I was in bed by 11:30. Good times! Man...people take sleeping for granted. I hear people say; screw sleeping...sleep when you are dead! Ha.....are they insane? I get on the average about 5-6 hours sleep. I deal with that. I seem to function fairly with it. But my goodness....when I get 8 or more hours of sleep....I feel like I fell off a cloud.  This kind of sleep happens 2 days a week. I can't complain!

Have a big night ahead of me....Karaoke night at the bar! The dude whom I was supposed to celebrate his birthday with yesterday....bailed on those plans. We will instead be celebrating it tonight at my bar. YAY!!

Happy December 1st to everyone! LOL
xo P