It has been awhile since I have posted a blog.
I can't even say that it's because I am overly busy. I mean....I am overly busy but...I think in the back of my mind...I just don't want to share what is happening in my life right now. There is so much going on...both business and personally related and each component has become so private...I just wouldn't know what to say anymore here.
I would love to update you on a relationship that I have just terminated as of last week. I will speak of it in light terms. I am certain that this person can find my blog and I have zero interest in stirring things up. With that said, we have been friends for a long time...more than 3 years. Over these 3+ years....there have been repeated brutal events. Each time I would state the situation at hand and we would come to some resolution. Not long after these discussions about bad/negative behavior this person would revert right back to Square One...totally ignoring what was discussed and as a result...another fight would occur. How many times can I possibly go through the same event? Over and over and over and over again! It is fuckn exhausting! I am exhausted! I don't have the time or energy to deal with such an exhausting person who is supposed to be my friend but is rather a dead weight to me. This person brings me more grief than happiness. This person is more trouble than good times. This person is damaging to my well being and after 3 years of brutality....I AM DONE!!!!!!
Next; I am sure you don't remember...but I went out on 2 (AMAZING!) dates with this guy that I met on POF. He was the outdoorsy kind of guy....tall/handsome/ginger...gorgeous/intelligent and all those good things. I definitely fell hard for the guy and after those 2 dates...he disappeared completely. I am not the kind of person to go begging or even to put closure on things. Since he sold me out....I expected that that was over. I never called him to find out what happened nor to give him an ear full....although there were times that I definitely wanted to. Please note; this episode was 4 months ago. Well...last Friday that DOUCHE BAG texted me with an apology. Ha!!!! Can you believe it? All along I thought he high tailed it because he read my blog and thought that I was maybe too involved and he wasn't prepared for that. The reality is....he was seeing someone else...and made a decision to date only one.....the other one! Turns out she is a lesbian and tried to have sex with his ass!!! LMAO Karma folks!! It is real...watch out!
For some reason...the Russian stripper whom I have maintained a friendship with for about 4 months now...has come to a new level. I am not certain what that level is....but....he is acting differently towards me. This is throwing me off BIG TIME! Now...we all know that I have been working on a 'special project'. As per usual I can't get into it now...but....there is a connection between my project and the Russian stripper. I feel like he is working harder at maintaining this friendship than he ever has. Why? I have no idea! I didn't do anything differently. I haven't said anything to him that would illicit some reaction....as in increasing his level of communication with me. I DON'T KNOW!!!! It really doesn't matter either. It is just mentally throwing me off.
My business and my special project are in full force. This makes me happy. I have really been devoting almost all of my time to my work. I am ok with this. If I freed up anymore time than I already do I would be forced to feel that absence of a man in my life. I am sitting on the fence as of late....with my single life. I love it because it gives me so much freedom to be me and do whatever I want to do. I have 2 trips to Europe next year. The first trip is 2 weeks starting at the end of December into January; hitting up Belgium, Holland and hopefully Italy. The second on is in August of next year....my bff's wedding. I am participating in 3 weddings next year....and of course my special project will materialize and be exposed by June of next year. Next year is going to be INSANE!!!! This combined with work...leaves very little time to nurture a relationship. On the other hand....I am not getting any younger. At 32....time is moving fast. It would be a treat to meet the rock star of a man that I am hoping to find for a life-time partner. With that said....I am still on these friggin horrible dating sites. They all suck balls!!!!
Let's lighten up the tone here....I am having a blast with my dear dear friends. Thank the lords for them. Seriously!!! Of course I need to put my family into this thought. My sister and her boys are keeping me busy as well. Was with them last night....spent some much needed quality time with my older nephew and got to snuggle with the twins. This is the light at the end of the day.
Well....this seems to be a long enough blog for one day! I hope it's not another bunch of weeks before I am back here!
Loves to you, the universe, my angels!!! xo P
