Ask and you shall recieve......so they say!!!!

GOOD DAY FOLKS......its a great day today....wouldn't you say? LOL

I woke up this morning with a bit of a smirk. Of course I didn't sleep all that well only because I spent the whole night in a dream about my my gf's wedding coming up. Good times! I also had some minimal progress with my roommate. She finally looked after the lawn. Man....I was getting so frustrated with her and that issue. I was living in a friggin jungle for goodness sakes. Now....it looks as it should; well maintained and nicely groomed. Yay!!!!

I am going to go and see Hangover 2 tonight with my very special someone. Can't wait to see it. Serious eye candy. I think the dude who lost his tooth in the first movie was in my dream last night. I think we were lovers and he was my date...lmao!!!!

FYI; yesterday was 3 weeks of my program completed. Going strong! I have been doing a lot of thinking about it and I have decided to keep it going....all the way to the wedding date....July 16th. That will have been 2 months and a week. Yup...I am doing it!!!! Let's see how far I can go!!!!

Once again.....super jazzed for this weekend. Can't come soon enough. Mind you...have the rest of the week to get through. I have court tomorrow afternoon.....going to fight a speeding ticket from a year ago. Then I have way more home hunting to do. Then I have my dress fitting Thursday evening....so fun! Then my one on one with Rhonda (trainer) on Friday. BUSY BUSY BUSY!!!!

Sending out love to you all....cause today I have a little extra to give!!! xo P

Can we call Mondays something else?

Good morning folks and happy Monday!!! I hope you all had an enjoyable weekend. As usual, mine was busy, sort of complicated and eventful.

Friday evening I was in the company of a wonderful person who has become pretty important to me. I won't get into that just now however. We went out to visit my tattoo artist to brainstorm ideas for 'our' tattoos. This was followed by a kick ass Thai dinner. It was relatively early as we arrive at my house so we decided to take my little nerd for a walk. Good times. Saturday woke up to an intense one hour kick boxing session with my kick ass trainer....man I love her! I immediately boogie to my sister's where I was going to visit with my dad whom I haven't seen in 8 months. SO GREAT!!!!! He is sporting this awesome pony tail....as if he was 30 again....but this time....he has platinum white gray hair rather than jet black hair. Rock on Dad!!! After our visit I booked it home to get ready for a home hunting marathon which yielded very little in they way of suitable options let alone a winner. POOH!!!! I then went back to my sister's for some dinner and social time with the fam and their friends.

I am still on the no drinking kick....so my nights tend to end early, especially because I work out super early on weekend mornings. Which means....that again, I woke up on Sunday to an intense workout but this time it was Zumba....which I have totally fallen in love with. Its like choreographed dancing. I always wanted to be a dancer/singer. This is perfect for me. Getting really really great at it too. Maybe one day I can be on 'So You Think You Can Dance'....lmao!!!! After my workout....had some shit to do for my mom and so I got that done with the intention of sneaking in a nap before my adventures to the city. Well....that nap was totally unproductive and so I just had to push through and get on with the day. All good things. Got my shit together and made it to downtown at which point I met up with my bff for some girly time. Hit up a Salsa club for some patio dancing....loved it! Might make a ritual of it for Sunday afternoons. Too fun! This was followed by some din din in Yorkville.....our stomping grounds. So so so great!!!

And here we are....friggin Monday! Well folks....on a high note; this is my birthday week. LOL.....yes....it is a week long festivity. Not really though. Don't have anything special planned until the weekend. Will get into that later in the week.

Happy Monday world! xoxo

It's going to be a douzy.....love it!

Happy Friday world!!! I trust that everyone has a fabulous weekend planned which might include some crazy parties or just some serious down time. Whatever you choose...I hope its wonderful!!!!

My weekend is action packed....as always! Never a dull moment.

Tonight....going to go and visit my tattoo artist....YAY!!!! SO FRIGGIN EXCITED!!!! Going to map out the piece I am getting on the 8th of June. Then...having din din with a dear friend of mine. That will be all for tonight because I have an early kickboxing class tomorrow morning followed by brunch with a fabulous woman who is the maid of honour at our bff's wedding. We have shit to plan! LOL After lunch I will be getting my daggers dealt with. They have gotten way too long and they are hindering my typing skills. Have gone from 70 words per minute to 60 words per minute with a few too many mistakes. Boooo!!!! Don't really have anything booked for Saturday night...which is fine because Sunday is wicked busy. I will start the day with an early Zumba class, followed by lunch with my Dad who just got back into town...YAY.....and my sister and her family; nephew and husband. LOVE FAMILY time. I will top off the weekend with some rooftop salsa at a bar in Toronto with my bff.

Sounds like a kick ass weekend to me!!!

Now...this Monday will be 3 weeks of my hardcore program....of which I splurged only one day with drinking. I think that is very commendable....wouldn't you? This person who got me hammered last Friday....my dear dear friend....finally sent me pictures from my house warming party back in December...lol!! What a trip!!! Now....having been on good behavior for awhile....I find it hysterical to see myself hammered....which I am in a bunch of these pics. I would post one....but in retrospect....that would be a bad idea!!!! So....you'll have to take my word for it!!!

Lots of love to you all!!!! See you on the flip side! xoxo P

Tough situation......tough call!

Since I have been entertaining buying a condo I have been not only learning a lot of things but also discovering a lot of things. For instance...just how volatile my life is. I actually don't have any stability WHAT SO EVER!!!! It is kind of scary to be perfectly honest.

Not only did I learn this fact, but I also learned that you really need to be completely precise and honest with your budget; expenses and spending. This was the hardest fact to acknowledge and come to terms with.

I would love to say that my working world is stable and consistent but the actual truth is that it is NOT!! I am in the midst of getting my real estate license and with that said, the one job I have right now is one that will hold me over until I get into sales. This means that it doesn't fill in many voids. It is a steady pay cheque (low paying) and it isn't going to help me get my condo. I am trying to get into the condo sales world. I have a great connection...just have to sell myself....EKKKK!!!!! If I get this job...EVERYTHING changes. Opens up a lot of opportunity to excel in my future business...that is a shoe in, but it will also give me solid ground to work on in terms of getting my condo. With all this shit up in the air...it is hard to make a decision just now; do I buy or do I continue to rent.

Tough situation folks. With all that said, of course the natural progression for my train of thought on this matter is; why don't I just tough it out with my current roommate until I can figure things out? I shouldn't have to feel pressure or stress about this seeing as I set myself up in my current living arrangement with the hope that when the lease is up in November...I can reassess my situation then after being in sales for a couple months. What I am facing now...is 5 months early...and I haven't even gotten my license yet.

So folks....this is yesterday's, today's and tomorrow's struggle in Paula's world!!! Good times! LOL

You know when.......?

You know when you see something that you love and absolutely must have? Well...I saw something that I love and absolutely must have...and that is a condo. LOL

I found my dream home people. Now....I just have to wait for my third party to get into town...see if I have their back up...and if I do....then I could very well be writing on Friday about this celebration.

Fingers crossed world!!! I need something to go right for me. PLEAAAAAAAAAAASSSSEEEE!!!!!
Thank you!!!

So today is hump day. Why is it called hump day? Who came up with this? Every time I say it or write it...I can't help but getting sidetracked and thinking the inevitable; sex!!! LOL

I saw my trainer yesterday. Got to do some much needed boxing. Haven't done it in awhile and naturally, I am feeling it today! So great! Man....how do I love it! During my session...my trainer had to go to the bathroom...and I took that minute of alone time....to give that punching bag a hug and a kiss. Please don't laugh. This punching bag is right up there on my favorites list. Good times!

On a completely unrelated note but still very important...not sure if I mentioned...I made a bet with my step bro; if I succeed at not having a drink during the 30 day program I am on...he owes me $50. If I do have a drink during the 30 day program...I owe him $50. Well....people....I CAVED!!!! On the one hand I am thoroughly angry with myself for breaking my own goal...but...on the other hand...if you knew the state of mind I was in on Friday....you would totally understand why I had a drink (or 3). So...as it stands, I owe my bro $50. POOH!!!!!

Well folks...that's it! Happy Hump Day!!! Here's a chuckle for you.....

Hey you.....

Welcome back friends and family! I hope you all had a wonderful long weekend. Mine was Ok...can't complain. Lots of activity; visits with friends, family, workouts etc.

I really don't know where to start with today's blog. The first thing that comes to my mind is Chorizo....my poor little nugget. We discovered that he doesn't like fireworks....at least to be right beside them as they are going off. Sunday evening had dinner at my sister's. My cousin and his wife joined us along with my bro-in law's brother. We had an awesome time as always. Once it got dark, my brothers-in-law had their own fireworks that they wanted lit up. By this time, Chori already was slightly panicked by the commotion off the surrounding fireworks. So, once the guys were getting down with theirs....Chori and I had to stay in the house....and he was up on my shoulder shivering. How sad is that?!!! After about 1/2 hour of this...I decided to take him home...and snuggle with him in bed. Not a bad deal for either of us. LOL!!!

I am still going strong with my workouts....YAY! I can totally see progress. I am going to get weighed this afternoon....YUCK!!! But....although the scale and I are not friends....I am not totally focused on the number especially when I can physically see the changes. LOVE IT!!! Oh on that note; I know I never told you why I am really doing this....other than I have to prepare for a special occasion. Well...now that it has come out into the open....my two dearest friends are getting married....in less than 2 months!! LOL EKKKKK!!!! I have to get dress worthy by July 16th people. YUP....I refuse to look anything but FABULOUS in the gorgeous violet dress that I bought. Don't worry....it was to spec. I followed the same colour scheme as the maid of honour....and I did make sure to see the bride's dress....just so I wouldn't f*** up on my choice. Needs to be cohesiveness.....you know? LOL

I would say the most pivotal of events to happen this week was home hunting. I am moving out!!!! So I went to 3 viewings this weekend.....of which only one got a 7.5/10 grade. I was hoping to see another apartment down the way from that one....but it is not vacant and I have to wait for a suitable time for the current tenant to view it. POOH! However, with all that said and done....there have been some major discussions about taking the next big step in my life....huge in fact; possibly purchasing a home. Why not just bite the bullet now. I don't think you can ever be TOTALLY ready to take on such a serious debt or obligation. Further more, with rent being as high as it is...in the hood that I want to live in....I might as well be paying a mortgage. We (my mom and I) did some number crunching....its looking plausible. There are some more discussions to be had with a third and fourth party....but at least this is an option on the table....that I can get SUPER excited about! Fingers crossed people!!!

Just one more thing I want to put out there...into the universe....my dad is coming home this Thursday! We are in the midst of selling his condo. Please angels.....let this be my first sale!!!! I know you know how much it would mean to me!!!! Sending tons of love to you!!!!

That's it folks! Peace out! xo P

Mixed emotions; sad and angry!

I would like to say Happy Friday....but it really isn't for me!

I did it folks...I tore off the band-aide. First of all...it wasn't as bad as I thought it would be....but because I am so horrible at facing this person....I, again....was taken aback and didn't think things through when I agreed to what I agreed to....which was that I would be the one to leave.

After sleeping on it....I am no longer happy with this decision. I put my heart and soul into this house. I put a pile of money, blood and sweat into it and to have to leave it.....makes me very upset and sad. I am crying while writing this to you. To be blunt about it....I am devastated!!! I spent months searching for it....I had to convince this person to give it chance...and I am the one that has to leave? BREAKS ME HEART!!!!

I have made every room in that house special. I can't even continue telling you what this house means to me.

I am even more upset at the fact that I have to find another home. So much work, so many frustrations, so much money! I am beside myself with regret, sadness, anger!!!!

I really can't write anything more!!!!

Hope you all have a great long weekend. Hopefully when we return on Tuesday....I will be in better spirits!!!

xo P

Short for words today.....

So....a wise person said to me yesterday...lol.....JUST RIP THE BAND-AID OFF!!! It has taken me 24 hours to get to the point where I can take this advice and apply it. First things first. Going to do what I typically do...and give this person....the person I spoke of yesterday or the day before....an opportunity to counter my concerns. Not like it matters....I am positive the end result will be that I have to rip the band-aid off and just come out with the shit.

I suck!!!! LOL

On a lighter note; I had another kick ass workout last night. Man...I am getting good at this zumba business...lol!! Since I have started this whole program...11 days ago, my social life has dwindled a whole lot. Please don't get me wrong...I  like it. I am not spending nearly as much money as I was. Obviously I am not drinking...which is helping me out in more ways than you can imagine. I am getting proper sleep...waking up with more energy. I am WAY less angry...LMAO!!! I think that could be a highlight...! I get to spend more time with the most important thing in the whole world...my dog!

My mom and I played Lotto 649 yesterday....we could be millionaires. Ha!!! Have I ever shared with you...my plans should I come into some big monies? LMAO
Another day!!!

Chau for now folks! xo P

Ay caramba!

Happy Hump Day world! Are you sick of this weather or what? Cause I sure am! GRRRRRR

So...yesterday was day 10 of my program....and physically....I see results, which you would think would be sufficient....but it wasn't...and so with my trainer, I weighed myself only to be thoroughly shafted by the f***n scale. Note to self; do no eat a meal before getting weighed and try to avoid weigh ins when being visited by mother nature's evil disciple...thank you water retention!!! LOL NOT!!!

On a more uplifting note; I LOVE MY ONE DAY OFF during the week.....friggin love it! I can safely say that it is positively the most productive day in my week....OMB!!! I got so many things done...that not only am I in wicked awesome spirits....but....I am not stressing over what still needs to be done. YAY for me! LOL

And for those of you wandering...Yes...I am still a pussy!!! My new thought process is...I am going to be playing the Lotto 649 with my mom today...$11,000,000. Should I win...I will be giving my roommate what I owe for the rest of our lease...and going to buy a condo in Port Credit out right. No more dicking around. LOL! So....please please wish me luck and send me your love....cause...if you do....I will be giving the love back!

Hope everyone has a great day!! Till tomorrow.....xo P

Can we say PUSSY?

It really is sort of funny.....I mean....in about 90% of my life...I have control and can do things with confidence and conviction....in that last 10%.....I just can't figure out why I live in fear and can't stand up. WTF????!!!!

I apologize in advance....I can not explain the situation with detail without exposing the other party involved. Just know....that I had the opportunity last night to make a move in a situation that required a dramatic proposition be presented. Does that make sense? I have been waiting patiently to state my case...and I had the chance yesterday....and I flaked out! GRRRRR....so angry with myself. Not to mention....I had a friggin intense dream last night...no doubt due to my feeling the way I do. I won't get into the dream just now. Very long and descriptive.

Now...there will be plenty other opportunities for me to say my piece....but I feel that the longer I take....the harder it will be to stand by it. So...it sort of needs to happen TODAY!!!!! EKKKKK!!!! Here it is folks...the weakness in me is taking over. WHY????? I don't get it! I can't stand these moments. I strive to be strong and emotionally sound....but there are a few people out there who challenge me in the worst way when it comes to this. I realize that this could be my gods/angels....testing me....giving me the most intense challenge....pushing me so far....well to that I say....F***!!!

I need your help!!!!! Please think of me tonight....send me all of your positive thoughts and love. I need your support!

xo P

7 Days Down.....

Happy Monday world! Yes...it is absolutely yucky out there. It is cold and wet....but....it's ok! It's Monday...lol!!! Typical weather for a typical day.

So, I have completed my first week of no drinking and doing 6 workouts. How did it go? Brilliantly! How did I do? Brilliantly! Do I feel lighter? Definitely! Was it difficult? The working out was not the hard part. In fact...I thoroughly enjoyed doing it...so much that I just might keep up with this business even after the 30 days. When it comes to the drinking.....I will say that I was tempted on Friday night while at a girlfriend's dinner party. Instead of having an actual glass of wine; I had about a half ounce of red wine mixed with about 4 ounces of Perrier. Some would say that is cheating...but I would have to disagree. I have 3 weeks to go and I am confident that I will succeed with flying colours.

My weekend was pleasant and quiet. Friday was my one day off from working out....but only because I had no time to squeeze in a workout. Had so many errands to run before heading to Toronto for that dinner party. Had a blast there. Saturday started my day with an hour of kickboxing....then puttered around for a bit before my hair appointment. After 3 hours....walked out of the salon...looking like a rock star! Then I had to do some writing for a couple articles that I had to complete for today. Was supposed to get together with a team of buddies...but it got too late and I simply went to bed. All good....cause I had to get up early Sunday for my zumba class. SO FUN!!!!!  Had lunch with a dear friend and then went to see Priest in 3D with another friend. So...action packed....but mellow.

This will be the sentiment of my weekends to come. I am loving the no drinking. When having lunch with my dear friend yesterday...I ordered a virgin Caesar...we both laughed! It had to be done. The restaurant that we went to....makes the BEST Caesars EVER...and I just had to have one.

Well folks....here's me hoping you all have a brilliant Monday!!! xo P

HOLY MOSES.....

Well hello there world. Its about 5 hours past the hour that I would typically write to you...due to Blogspot having technical difficulties...but hey...it's never too late, unless of course it were tomorrow...at which point we'd be shit out luck.

So....HAPPY FRIDAY to all!!!

I have just finished my lunch at work which includes catching up on shows that I have missed during the week. So today...I watched the latest Survivor Redemption episode. It's getting super intense...I love it!

I have 2 hours left here at work...then it's off to look after the puppies then I have to hustle to get ready and head to Toronto to spend some time with a couple fabulous gals. Going to have some din din...and try my very best to refrain from having a drink. I know I rationalized having a cocktail now and then....gin and Perrier...but...I actually really don't want to. I really really really want to see if I can do 30 days with NO drinks at all. Such a mind struggle. If it wasn't for the temptation...I would be fine. GRRRR!!!! Just thinking about it hurts a little.

I went out for dinner last night with a fabulous woman....the one I said I hadn't seen since my house warming party back in December. Such a treat! The waitress comes up and asks us what we would like to drink and I struggled for a second. I knew I wasn't going to be drinking...but I am SO used to ordering wine....that I stumbled. OH....get this? My bill was easily 1/2 of what I would typically spend at a restaurant. It is such a shock to realize how much money I spend on booze. EKKKK!!!

For the rest of the weekend; workouts, getting my hair done (YAY!!!!) and then catching up with some of my crew for a visit, hopefully catching a movie with another friend and then....sucking up the last few moments of peace before the storm. If you are asking......"what does she mean by storm"?
                                     The roommate is coming home!!!!!

Wish me luck world! Crunch time! xoxox P

Day of rest actually equals day of productivity on a monster scale.

Good day world! Happy Thursday to all. Was just checking out the weather for today and it says sunny with moments of cloudiness. Not too shabby!

For the past year or so....I have had the following schedule; work for 4 days at my stepfather's office and on that 5th working day; focus on my freelance work, do my workout with Rhonda and get all of those things done that you typically can't get done while at the office for the day. This would include such things as laundry, doctor's appointments, any kind of appointments for that matter and of course any other chores that need to get done. With that said...today is that one day and my goodness, it is action packed.

My day will start with the most unpleasant experience that a woman (in my opinion) can go through...a pap test. LOL For all of you out there who don't know what that means....it is a test synonymous to a man's prostate exam. Only woman get this and hopefully you get it done once a year. It is part of the annual exam and is very necessary....but also incredibly uncomfortable...at least for me! I dread this exam....like I dread getting blood taken. EEEEEKKKK!!!! It happens that my doctor is in North York....so I get to spend some time sitting in traffic on my way there.....Yippee!! LOL

This event is followed by me picking up my little nerd and taking him to his spring spa day which includes a nail trim, brush out and bath. So great for him! My turn is coming up soon.....minus the nail trim and brush out.

From there I will be going to visit a friend to pick up a parcel and deliver it to another friend....lots of driving...but that's ok!

Then...it is computer bound to complete 2 articles all before 3:45pm at which point I will be heading over to my personal trainer's house for a one on one workout. Highlight of my day...as u know! Then its back to the computer for some more work....but only for an hour or so. Then.....I have to hustle to get ready for din din with a dear dear friend. Haven't seen her since my house warming party back on December 11th. WHOA NELLY!!!

So there it is folks...that is me maximizing my time! LMAO

xo P

It's happening....can feel it!! Bring it on!!!

So folks...last night was day 2 of running. I have to say...I friggin love it!! Nothing better (other than training with Rhonda) than jogging water side with Chorizo and oogling the sailboats at Port Credit Yacht Club. This has to be my most favorite pass time and exercise regime to date.

Imagine...this is me with my little wiener dog....not showing my midriff...lol. P.S. Chori doesn't run on a leash with me....cause he's that friggin amazing! I think our relationship has just gotten to another level. He absolutely loves doing this with me. He truly is the happiest dog EVER.

Now tonight...will be Zumba with Rhonda. I have to tell you...running....gives you a whole different kind of soreness. I find this to be a little odd. Spoke with my mom about it this morning. She said "Oh ya!". LOL A woman of so many words. Not much of a morning person...lol! Love ya mom!

So how is everyone? Lovin the weather? I would say I am so excited for patio weather...but seeing as I am not drinking for 1 month...minus 2 days...I will be holding off on visiting them.

I think that's about it for today peeps. Sending out tons of love....cause I can and I am in awesome spirits!

Determination, committment and goals.......my new shtick!

LOL!!!!

So, you all know that I have been working out for a long time BUT I have to be honest....I've hit a plateau. Now it's time to up the ante. I was given a new goal to work toward and based on this new goal...I have implemented a VERY difficult challenge. Not only will I increase my workouts to 7 days a week....I will also STOP drinking for 1 month. OMG.....putting this on paper...so to speak makes it so official. EEKKK!!!

Now...I am no saint....which means that if I am going to have a cocktail on a Friday night....I will only drink gin/tonics which pale in comparison to the caloric value of wine. Get this; one glass of wine equals 120 calories....an ounce of gin.....60 calories. For those of you who know me well....I easily plough through a bottle of wine....which equals...well let's just say that one bottle of wine equals half of my food intake in a day. DISGUSTING!! How is anyone supposed to get fit drinking wine? LOL

My apologies to you...wine gods....you are my bffs and I love you dearly....but I don't love fat...so....time out for you!!!

I have 2 months to reach my goal....but will achieve most of my success during the month (from yesterday May 9th to June 9th) of no drinking.

Now....I am sure some of you are thinking...."but Paula....your birthday is June 5th.....are you really not going to be drinking on your birthday?" to which I have to say......YES!!!! I have purposefully planned my birthday festivities already....and it doesn't include any booze....other than maybe a gin/tonic.

So there it is folks. Let's just see how focused I can be!!

Happy Tuesday world!!! Peace, love and rock n roll! xo

I am a believer.......now!

Ok....so...first off; hope everyone had a great weekend. I trust that you all spent time with your wonderful mothers and that you mother's enjoyed YOUR DAY!

My weekend; hmmmmm....what can I say?!!! Friday night, I hosted a part at my house. I did have a brilliant time....but because it started early...meant I started drinking early which meant that I was hammered at an early hour...which meant I would not last the whole night. LOL
There were 2 rounds of guests. First came family from 6:30 to 9pm and then the friends came and family left. I have intermittent memories of the night. My one friend brought cake mix as a gift...LMAO. Ya....my bff and I ended up making a cake at midnight...totally hammered. GOOD TIMES!!!

Saturday spent the late morning, early afternoon cleaning up then spent the afternoon relaxing. I had plans to have dinner with another bff downtown. I always look forward to spending time with this Lady because she is an angel with angel powers...lol! She is able to help me channel my negative energy in such a way that I feel refreshed and cleansed after spending time with her. She is incredible! During our 4.5 hour dinner...lol....we covered so much material....it was crazy. She managed to inspire me and give me closure on a MAJOR issue, she guided me into a new thought process which she said would yield incredible results, she explained to me how if you believe and emote certain energies and always send love out....anything can happen. Well....I am a believer. I think I always was....just needed more information and guidance. As it turns out...I took all of her advice and inspiration...applied as she suggested I should and BOOM....things happened. My angels can and do hear me...and....THEY DO RESPOND!!! I promise, I am not going crazy. Its not like I am hearing voices or anything...LOL! They respond by sending things to me....signs/opportunities/great news etc. Well....when it rains it pours. I got 3 major pieces of BRILLIANT news. I can't share with you just now....this shit needs to materialize first. Don't want to jinx it. You know?

So all in all....great friggin weekend and now its Monday! The 'roommate' comes home today. Should be interesting. Wish me luck folks! Peace and love to all!

FREEDOM & DREAMS

Good friggin morning world!!! SUCH A GREAT DAY!!!!!

I am smiling for a bunch of reasons this morning. Let me share with you;

1. I have grown a set of balls...as of yesterday I made an executive decision to remove someone from my private world. This person has been poisoning my aura for way too long....enough is enough. FEELS SO GOOD!!!

2. I am having a party tonight....in the absence of my roommate. YAY!!! I just hope that mother nature looks kindly on me....NO RAIN PLEASE!

3. Was in the company of a dear dear friend last night...always have a blast with this one. THANK YOU!

Now....what I really wanted to talk about today are my DREAMS. Oh my noodle....I think I am going to start writing a journal about them. I have been told...that I am lucky...if that is what you want to call it because I can remember almost every detail and can revisit it at my leisure. They are so so vivid and I would say that statistically....70% of the time there is a famous person in it or someone I know...lol!

I would like to share 2 of them today...please, someone...anyone...shed some light on this;

a) I dreamt I had a penis last night...lol!!! Don't worry...was still banging a man....lmao!! FYI; The dude...is a very dear friend of mine. EEEKKKK what does that mean? My dream starts out with my not having a penis...and then maybe I was granted a wish (to have a penis for a day). I remember being in a ton of shock from sight of the new appendage resting between my legs. I was already in the company of my man friend. I will end my description here.

I feel like my dreams last all night however I only got 4 hours sleep last night...so it could have only been a 4 hour long dream. Darn....wish it were longer. LOL

b) I was with Nick Cannon (Mariah Carey's dude). We were going to see a concert. He suggested that we find the best seats in the house...which happened to be at the top of a monster hydro poll...is what it seemed to be. It wasn't a real structure...it was big at the base and then got smaller and smaller as you climbed up. I would say by the time I reached the top...with Nick, we must have been 100' up in the air. I have a selective fear of heights. In my dream...I was shitting my pants, metaphorically speaking. It is typical of me to challenge myself...and do things I typically wouldn't do (think snowboarding in the Alps). So I was proud that I climbed up there. Then Nick and I watched some of the show at which point I decided I couldn't hold on any longer (for dear life)...and struggled to climb back down. I was terrified up there. This in itself was almost the whole dream.

Those 2 are just the beginning. I could write for hours about my dreams. There is this one dream...that I had for the first time when I was a young teenager...maybe 14 and it was horrible. It was more a nightmare than a dream. This dream repeated itself many many times over the years. Haven't had it for a couple years now...thankfully. SO SCARY!! But...I remember every friggin detail, unfortunately. The brutal part is that I remember the nightmares just as much as I remember the dreams.

Is anyone out there a dream doctor? Or a psychoanalyst?

Happy Friday world!!! To all the mother's out there....HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!!! Tons of love to you all! xo P

HOLY F***!!!

Good morning world....so beautiful outside! I promise...I woke up with a smile on my face. Went to my mom's to drop off the pooch for the day, went to get my morning coffee on my way to work, get to work and get online. I check my hotmail first...then facebook. I think I was still smiling up until I get a message from my roommate about a comment I posted yesterday regarding finding someone to mow my lawn.

All I can say is HOLY F***!!!! All I did was ask for some help for this Friday festivities. My roommate decides to publicy rip me a new asshole because she wants to be the one to look after the lawn. I have NO problems with that at all...except she is not here right now. She's away on holidays. I am really at a loss for words.

Moving along....I did have an awesome workout last night!!!

You know what? I am so sorry!!!! But I can't write anymore today!

My jaw hurts from being on the floor for so long.....metaphorically speaking!

LOL...I am sure I have peaked your curiosity....let me explain;

I had a dear dear friend over last night. Love this kid! He's been a best buddy for some time...something like over 10 years. Grew up together. He came over to visit with me yesterday before he was to head out to meet one of his many girls.

We are both in the dating world and for the most part....we are a lot alike...character wise. We share our dating experiences and give each other advice and some really great support. I am wicked thankful to have him as a friend.

So....we do not share the same bedroom preferences. He is INSANE!!! LOL Our visit was something like just over an hour and during that hour...I was in complete shock and awe from him sharing the details of some of his conquests. What shocks me more than his actual actions are the actions of the girls that he meets up with. I am very aware that there are some very special people out there....but my goodness....to hear about them so close to home....fascinates me. So...my friend attracts women that have extraordinary fetishes. He has extraordinary fetishes. I suppose that he emotes this energy...and these women flock to him. He says; "I never have to pick up women!!". I believe it! He does hit on some girls...but only for shits and giggles. What a dude?!

I was totally bewildered by his commentary. I even suggested that he write a blog about his experiences. Why? OMG...if you heard these stories....you would also say that the world needs to hear them as well. Priceless! I would expand on the story details....but I would like to keep my blog PG rated.

I am not lying when I say...that by the end of the visit...my jaw did hurt. LOL

Always a pleasure Mr. You know who!!!! See you Friday! xo

It's happening......

I can distinguish the layers of anxiety in my mind/heart and soul. With that said...I can see that I am slowly pulling it together. As the numbers of stresses are reduced and I burn the negative energy with workouts...things are getting back to normal.

So...Happy Tuesday world!

What can I share with you today? I sold a pair of the shoes that I am trying to sell. Only 46 more to go! LOL

I am getting super excited for my party on Friday. Please please keep your fingers crossed for good weather. I need this weekend to be great.

I went to visit my dear friend last night at his new home with his gf. Great house. He is the ultimate handyman...and has totally supped up his house. INCREDIBLE!!! So happy for them. Great couple, great home, great dog. All good things! They will be at my party on Friday.....can see my humble abode. LOL

I would usually be spewing out tons of info right about now...but I am sort of exhausted. I am struggling to keep my eyes open today. Maybe its the weather. Maybe its that I am finally calm and relaxed...to the max! Who knows!

I have started planning my birthday event. Its been decided that I am going to spend it with my mom and sister...at a spa followed by din din in the city. Seeing as I usually am hosting a brilliant party every year...I have changed my tune about things. I am TIRED!!!! I am taking a break from hosting. I want to pampered and spoiled. If I have to pay for this myself....I don't care! I am doing it!

Well folks...that's all she wrote....for now!

You know who you are......thank you!

So....I have had an absolutely HORRIBLE weekend!!!! So bad in fact, I honestly thought I was having a nervous breakdown. There were a couple people who managed to save me from this....and so I am writing to you today...to thank you for being there for me!

These people....include my dog. Granted he isn't a human....but my goodness....he schools just about everyone in terms of helping me get through shit....aside from my mom.

So...I know I mentioned last week that I didn't have hot water....or heat. I also know that I already said how retarded my roommate and I are for not getting on top of our shit when it comes to home utilities. Well....I spent the whole friggin weekend dealing with that f***n episode. I was in and out....grabbing clothes, changing clothes, waiting of the service people....getting screwed by the service people and then again waiting for the service people. Had to sleep at my parent's house which was as much a delight as it was a pain in my ass...and still....I have no hot water. Which means...the saga continues.

I had an action packed weekend planned. Did I get to do any of it? NO!!!! Of the 5 plans made for the weekend....I only got to do one! Does this infuriate me? ABSOLUTELY!!! Am I still raging? HELL YA!!!

I will get to expend that negative energy very soon....going to do some serious boxing today with my trainer. Like I mentioned on facebook....I have pictures of 3 people that I am going to put on the bag as I beat the shit out of it! I hope...that that is enough!! LOL

I hope that you all had a great weekend! I will live vicariously through you!!!

Till tomorrow folks! xo