Saw Breaking Dawn; Twilight Saga yesterday. I LOVED IT!!!! The beginning was slow and a little silly but the middle and end....brilliant. Now we have to wait another friggin year before we get to see that last segment to that series. FACK!!! LOL
Count downs:
1. 2 days till I visit with my cousin and his fiance for lunch.
2. 10 days till I see one of my dear dear friends
3. 11 days till I see the one of my bffs
4. 14 days till I see my bbbbbff
5. Still trying to arrange a visit with 2 other bffs of mine.
So I have had 3 nights to sleep on an issue that I lightly talked about on Friday. I still want to write about it. I am fully aware of the consequences of discussing this issue and yet...I am still going to write my thoughts down. I have always been honest with my blog. I have always written what is bothering me, why stop now?! Granted, writing my thoughts and feelings has pissed off a couple people. To my defence, this is my journal....I can write what I want!
My usual routine every morning is to check my emails and deal with that first and then go to facebook and deal with that and finally I will come to my blog and write. Friday morning I got and read an email from this person who's friendship with me has been reduced to nothing. What really concerns me is how she makes me feel. She is the second person over the past 2 years to make me feel like I am certifiably insane. This is very unhealthy. Everyday, I consider and reconsider and consider again....wtf she is talking about. I simply don't get it. The fact is, I had a concern that should have been considered and it wasn't. Instead, my concern was thrown out the door and what was left was nothing but horrible and negative energy on both our ends. I strongly believe I am humble enough to hear this person's argument....but only if that person shares the humility and acknowledges my concern. Takes 2 to tango...not one. This friendship needs both people to give a shit....not just one. I am not going to rehash my contributions to this friendship...what would be the point in that?
This email consisted of 2 sentiments and 1 criticism:
1. She cares
2. She doesn't care
3. My blogs are insulting
Ok!
Not too sure what to do with this information. As the days move on...I am feeling less and less angry/sad/frustrated. Maybe that is all I can do....is give this friendship (or whatever you want to call it!) time. It is clear to me that she reads my blogs, hence the criticism...I will say this; I will never apologize for my writing...EVER!!!! It is my safe place and my sanity.
On a lighter note; I am seeing my trainer today. It has been 2 weeks since I have seen her. EEEKKK! I am sure I am going to be suffering from the great pain tomorrow. Good times!!
Happy Monday!
xo P
