Mixed emotions; sad and angry!

I would like to say Happy Friday....but it really isn't for me!

I did it folks...I tore off the band-aide. First of all...it wasn't as bad as I thought it would be....but because I am so horrible at facing this person....I, again....was taken aback and didn't think things through when I agreed to what I agreed to....which was that I would be the one to leave.

After sleeping on it....I am no longer happy with this decision. I put my heart and soul into this house. I put a pile of money, blood and sweat into it and to have to leave it.....makes me very upset and sad. I am crying while writing this to you. To be blunt about it....I am devastated!!! I spent months searching for it....I had to convince this person to give it chance...and I am the one that has to leave? BREAKS ME HEART!!!!

I have made every room in that house special. I can't even continue telling you what this house means to me.

I am even more upset at the fact that I have to find another home. So much work, so many frustrations, so much money! I am beside myself with regret, sadness, anger!!!!

I really can't write anything more!!!!

Hope you all have a great long weekend. Hopefully when we return on Tuesday....I will be in better spirits!!!

xo P