It happened!!!!

I haven't felt this much pain in a long while...so it is sort of welcome. I can only laugh at my struggles to walk, sit and basically do any movement at all. My goodness! Yesterday's workout...was in fact killer! I could tell yesterday even. Walking up and down stairs....my thighs are in lock down. Today...I feel it EVERYWHERE. But...it is a great pain...that I simply have to endure and take like a champ. Although...tonight is my first night working at the bar and I am slightly overwhelmed with mixed emotions; excitement, nervousness and fear. It won't go away until I am there right in it. Wish me luck folks!!! Going to need it!

I had horrible nightmares last night...about my first night back at this bar. I can't even go over the details with you. Just horrible!!! With that said, I didn't have a productive sleep at all. Usually this wouldn't matter all that much because at the end of the day...I get to go home and relax. Not today! Not ever on Thursdays and Fridays now. From my 8 hour workday at the office....I pull another 8 hour shift at the bar. There are 2 hours in between the shifts. Not nearly enough time for much more than a cat nap and a bite to eat. These two particular days will morph into 16 hour days. YAY!!! Not!!! It's cool! I have done this so many times before and it really is all about making money.

Last night I was in the company of Mr. Fabulous. Had to pack in some much needed R n R with guy. Haven't spent nearly enough quality time with him in awhile. We relaxed for a bit and looked after my dog before heading out to get some food. From there went back to my house to look after the nerd one more time and then drove to the city to watch a TFC game; TFC vs Dallas. WHAT A GAME!!! LMAO I felt like I was watching a high school soccer match. I apologize to all you hard core TFC fans...and Dallas fans. Seeing as I have a south American background and grew up with German folk....being exposed to top tier soccer games/players has given me a bit of standard. Good times were had non-the-less! Thank you Mr. Fabulous!!!

Yesterday, during my workout with my trainer, we discussed the topic of 'love'. My trainer asked me if I had expressed my emotions for Mr. Fabulous using that terminology to which my reply was no. I have not used the L word. She said "great, let him say if first". LOL I have had it in my mind to hang onto that sacred piece of verbiage until the time was right or until he said it first. That was my plan at least. Well....we all know that shit happens and that not everything works out the way you planned. After the game, we had a bit of a walk to my car from the BMO field. It was a nice stroll. We get in the car and Mr. Fabulous is giving me instruction to notify him of when I am going to close the windows once the AC kicks in. Apparently I have hurt him a couple times in past....LMAO!!! In response to this notification from Mr. Fabulous I said; will do my love!!!! EKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK!!!!!

Slip of the tongue!!! But you know what....I am the kind of person who says this to the people whom I really care about; my dog, my bffs etc. Can't you picture it? Someone (important to you) asks you something or needs something or whatever the case may be...and you say; of course my love. Hmmmm....maybe not! The more I say it/write it....the more I realize....you don't just say that to anyone. Again........EKKKKKKKKKK!!!!! LOL

I wish I could describe Mr. Fabulous' expression....but I was so concerned with my outburst...that I was dealing with feeling sheepish and trying to recover the situation rather than take note of his response to that comment. Now; I did continue to giggle to myself during the ride home and Mr. Fabulous kept asking me why I was giggling and I explained to him what my thoughts were about the whole situation. He was very supportive and good about the whole thing. Thank you for that Mr. Fabulous!!! LOL

So there it is folks; another day in the world of Paula! xo P