She's alive!!

Holy shit balls!! I honestly didn't think I was going to come around from this friggin illness. Uggggh!!!

Thursday night....I felt like I looked like a zombie. On the inside...my body was putrefying into waste...is how it felt. With each moment of work, I was getting worse and feeling worse. It got to the point where I had to excuse myself to lie down. I asked my manager to take over for a bit while I got horizontal in the hopes that it would give me back some energy. Maybe an hour later, I got called back....lol! I was lucky to get an hour! I popped some Advil....did a mind f*** on myself and hustled through the rest of the night. Man....I blew my mind! Drove home like an idiot....just wanted to get into my pj's and into my bed....desperately. I am sure the cops...if there were any...would have either just let me go...or would have taken me to the hospital. Either way...I didn't care! I got home...had to look after the little guy. Got my pj's on and hit the sack like a ton of bricks. Didn't sleep a wink though. Was in so much pain and discomfort....I wanted to die! I tossed and turned for about 5 hours at which point I called my mom to save me. She did! She picked me and the nerd up. We dropped the nerd off at my mom's and then went to the doctors. I couldn't stand or even walk. I felt like I was dying...slowly but surely.

I didn't have to wait long, like 5 minutes...pulled myself up a stair case and crashed on a seat and was bent over my lap waiting for the door to the exam room to open. When it did....I sloughed my way in. Doctor asked me what was wrong. I said I have strep throat. He argued with me! Ha.....don't argue with me. I have had it enough times to know what it is. Again....he disagreed and finally said I have tonsillitis. Fine!!! Whatever!!! HELP ME!!! He gave me antibiotics...which was to be expected. Had to go back downstairs...which was a very dangerous feat...with my eyes half closed, hunched over from pain and dizziness, finally get to the main level and told my mom....gotta sit down. She went to get the script.

We get back to the house. I immediately went to bed. I didn't leave that bed or that room for 48 hours straight....unless of course to pee or change my sopping wet clothes from the profuse sweating the took place over that time. I think I had to change 4 times over those 2 days. I have never known what it is like to sweat from every inch of your body....at the same time. My socks, pants, underwear, undershirt, shirt, neck, face, head, arms.....sweating...a lot! Disgusting! All that aside...not being able to swallow liquids, forget about solid foods, was problematic. When you sweat that much...you need to put something back in. This created a monster headache that lasted....wait...I still have it! Yesterday, Sunday....I could see the light. The excruciating pain that took over my whole body had dissipated. Now...the focus was on my upper body; shoulders and up. It was at this point my rage started to kick in. In my head I was saying....F*** you sickness....get the f*** out of my body. I hate you I hate you!

LMAO!!!

I can laugh about it now!

I decided to take charge. I didn't care that I couldn't swallow. I was determined to fight this thing like I would if I was boxing with my trainer. I went to solid foods. Between the stomach cramps, my tonsils being the size of ping pongs, the migraine, the pain in my shoulders....I had had enough! I ploughed through countless glasses of water, 5 cups of tea, 3 cups of hot soup, sandwiches, bananas....whatever I could get my hands on. I wanted this thing out of me. It was an accomplishment. I have to say I am pretty proud of myself. The stomach cramps persist. Whatever! I know that won't go away until I am done with the script. I am best friends with Advil...take that frequently throughout the day. My bastard tonsils have shrunken to the size of grapes (down from ping pong size). Hoping they will be the size of peas by tomorrow. As for my neck and shoulders....going to put a hot pack on them today.

As for my brain and emotional well-being? Ha!!! Let's revisit that tomorrow! xo P